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2009-02-03T09:24:00.000+07:00

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2008-11-07T10:23:00.004+07:00

I was soo extremely weak yesterday I couldn’t think, couldn’t eat, couldn’t walk as fast as I used to every day, even my digestion rejected anything I swallowed.. I was like brainless person.. The doctor said my blood pressure is dropped to 99/60 or something (hell with it) and I had to eat lots of veggies and work out more often while my dad said I supposed to eat lamb to raise my blood pressure.. But I was too weak to reach them all… I just had medicines….. then today I found a way to raise my blood pressure…. :

An article I just found on google:

We all know what anger is, and we've all felt it: whether as a fleeting annoyance or as full-fledged rage.
Anger is a completely normal, usually healthy, human emotion. But when it gets out of control and turns destructive, it can lead to problems—problems at work, in your personal relationships, and in the overall quality of your life. And it can make you feel as though you're at the mercy of an unpredictable and powerful emotion. This brochure is meant to help you understand and control anger.
What is Anger?
The Nature of Anger
Anger is "an emotional state that varies in intensity from mild irritation to intense fury and rage," according to Charles Spielberger, PhD, a psychologist who specializes in the study of anger. Like other emotions, it is accompanied by physiological and biological changes; when you get angry, your heart rate and blood pressure go up, as do the levels of your energy hormones, adrenaline, and noradrenalin.
Anger can be caused by both external and internal events. You could be angry at a specific person (Such as a coworker or supervisor) or event (a traffic jam, a canceled flight), or your anger could be caused by worrying or brooding about your personal problems. Memories of traumatic or enraging events can also trigger angry feelings.
Expressing Anger
The instinctive, natural way to express anger is to respond aggressively. Anger is a natural, adaptive response to threats; it inspires powerful, often aggressive, feelings and behaviors, which allow us to fight and to defend ourselves when we are attacked. A certain amount of anger, therefore, is necessary to our survival.
On the other hand, we can't physically lash out at every person or object that irritates or annoys us; laws, social norms, and common sense place limits on how far our anger can take us.
People use a variety of both conscious and unconscious processes to deal with their angry feelings. The three main approaches are expressing, suppressing, and calming. Expressing your angry feelings in an assertive—not aggressive—manner is the healthiest way to express anger. To do this, you have to learn how to make clear what your needs are, and how to get them met, without hurting others. Being assertive doesn't mean being pushy or demanding; it means being respectful of yourself and others.
Anger can be suppressed, and then converted or redirected. This happens when you hold in your anger, stop thinking about it, and focus on something positive. The aim is to inhibit or suppress your anger and convert it into more constructive behavior. The danger in this type of response is that if it isn't allowed outward expression, your anger can turn inward—on yourself. Anger turned inward may cause hypertension, high blood pressure, or depression.
Unexpressed anger can create other problems. It can lead to pathological expressions of anger, such as passive-aggressive behavior (getting back at people indirectly, without telling them why, rather than confronting them head-on) or a personality that seems perpetually cynical and hostile. People who are constantly putting others down, criticizing everything, and making cynical comments haven't learned how to constructively express their anger. Not surprisingly, they aren't likely to have many successful relationships.
Finally, you can calm down inside. This means not just controlling your outward behavior, but also controlling your internal responses, taking steps to lower your heart rate, calm yourself down, and let the feelings subside.

free lulur ......yay

2008-10-13T19:49:00.004+07:00

previously i got this lulur a.k.a body scrub for Rp17,000 from warda, a work mate but today i got it for free heheheh it was from another work mate.. she gave away this balinese lulur to every girl in the office hehehh she's a bali native and just got back from there, she said the lulur was only Rp7,000 each in bali!!!..other workmate told me someone at kemang festival sold it for rp30,000 each.. what a profit!!.. i dont know why this lulur is quite well known among girls.. but i proved it smells good.. ive had used the seaweed flavor..today i got the carrot.. but it still smells good.. and it really smoothened my skin!!!!!!! dammit they should pay me for this once again.. hahahhaha im not even a freelance marketer anyway.. now i have a plan to do on this weekend already which is six days ahead...heheeheh i'll pamper my self with the lulur and dvds...koolll.,... who doesnt look forward for day off *sigh.......

pressure........

2008-09-22T12:39:00.007+07:00

just found my disgust-face pic on titan's blog heehehhehe.... what did i disgust about? it's natto... or more exactly natto sushi...yuck!! it's made of fermented soybean..literally fermented!!!!!!!! without any further process..in Indonesia it is similar to tempe but i think tempe is more civilized made...and i love tempe a lot......wat bout natto? it smells like shit!!!!!!!! by smelling it i wasnt interested to go further like eating it maybe...i way prefer sushi... and i like sushi alot but this kind, thanx...

i found closer look of freakin natto from wikipedia.. there u go..enjoy....

haahahahah i imagined eating natto is like being under pressure.. maybe for the first trial..well at least for me...
speaking of pressure,,,, i kinda have been experiencing and used to it recently...but of course i still need more strength to deal with it,,,,

under pressure by queen

Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure - that tears a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
Um ba ba be
Um ba ba be
De day da
Ee day da - that's o.k.
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher
Pressure on people - people on streets
Day day de mm hm
Da da da ba ba
O.k.
Chippin' around - kick my brains around the floor
These are the days it never rains but it pours
Ee do ba be
Ee da ba ba ba
Um bo bo
Be lap
People on streets - ee da de da de
People on streets - ee da de da de da de da
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher high high
Pressure on people - people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
but it's so slashed and torn
Why - why - why ?
Love love love love love
Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love give love give love give love
give love give love give love give love give love
'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And loves dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

sunday work!!!

2008-09-21T11:41:00.005+07:00

It’s Sunday and im at the office.. hhhhmm yeah I know it sucks but at least I’d get paid for it.. at the moment im just waiting for my other work mate to work together with me,… last nite I slept on the floor as it was freeeaaaakkiing hot I couldn’t stand.. ive got my fan on… and kept coughing during the sleep.. been 4 days of cough.. Yesterday I spent half day cleaning up my room.. and mopped the floor ---so finally I can sleep on it..heheeh… been three days of skipping fasting as I got my accident .. it’s not really different than when I fast coz.. many food stores are closed in daylight.. they’d open since at least 5 pm… the actual schedule of Sunday work starts around 12 or 1 pm but I was just bored at my room so here I am.. have downloaded five songs since 11 am hehehh.. it’s not bad.. as I am the only one using the internet at the moment.. the connection is just as good as a flash…
This is what I, emil, titan, risti and rifa did on Friday after hour..hehee.. we took picture of ourselves on a mirror reflection at the entrance of our office,….

people like u are the reason people like me need medication........

2008-09-02T14:56:00.005+07:00

this movie is soo kool.. i like the way charlie raise money and helping his friends at the same time. though he eventually realized that selling drugs is wrong...it shows how goodness come after passing bad stuffs whoahahahah i sound damn cliche aight.. forget it :p

perverts are off during ramadhan

2008-09-01T21:03:00.002+07:00

hahhahha today as i walked home from my workplace...calmly and peacefully... it was a rare thing since usually streets perverts do the psst pssst psst just like they play a record of it.. hhahahha screw them.. maybe they're fasting too.. i like this circumstance.. well it shows that they actually realized what they do was no good to others and very much reflected their lust so they have to resist it during ramadhan hhaahhaha......alhamdulillah....

What titan did

2008-09-01T12:12:00.004+07:00

A reckless driver, identified as "T", on Friday night has brutally hit a traffic cone with her car at a parking lot around Mampang area, South Jakarta. The incident was first discovered by one of the four passengers in the vehicle who spotted the badly damaged cone had already been stuck between a car stopper (see picture). Witnesses believed the incident at the parking lot was not the only offense committed by the suspect that night. "At least two other traffic offenses were committed by this wretched driver," a witness, who was also a passenger in the car, said (but only in her mind, not saying it out loud for fear she would be kicked out of the car in the middle of nowhere at midnight). People (especially security guards and traffic police officers) are advised to keep watch on this driver because you never know what other offense she is capable of doing.

written by: risti (heeeeehhehehehh)

gggrrrrr.....

2008-09-01T11:00:00.004+07:00

God… it’s fuckin bid’ah here…. Btw bid’ah is the so called believed praying behaviors in islam that are only “believed” by people which actually are never mentioned nor suggested in/by Al-Qur’an or hadits… wat’s wrong with these people in this damn metropolitan city Jakarta… yeah they called it metropolitan but I don’t think it represents the supposed residents behavior… I think people here are more into closed minded than opened ones…well not all of them but certain kinda people…what is it good to set the speaker at its loudest and get other people’s ears starting to deaf up---if there’s any of such term---- well I once read that Muhammad SAW said to one of its follower who read Al-Qur’an so loud so other people could hear….he said that it’s no good because not every body could accept the behaviour.. there is possibility that a number of people would feel bothered with the loud sound and will resulting in the bad image of islam……. Hmmmm I think that makes sense to me..the probability once really happened here in Indonesia several months ago.. in Riau as some wacko foreigner got mad at some jamaah masjid who read Al Qur’an soo loud with the speaker…and eventually they made up each other…..ok it’s different with Azan case.. Azan is the call for praying and are only done five times with around five minutes each…. Not exaggerating….. Allah doesn’t like exaggerated stuffs… why are these people sooooooo aaaaaaaarrrgggghhh?!@ I really don’t get it….:-s

alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-01T10:34:00.005+07:00

Have had much new stuff in my life recently… so yeah ive got a job, thank God for that heeeee… I kinda enjoy this job because I only have to do something I once did at uni, only this one is in english…..

So sometimes I gottago to office at 6 and back home at around 5 or most times over time hehehhee……….. For notification, im now at 3 months probation and been through 3 weeks so far.. ive done some trials and errors but errors are more likely hehehhehhe…….. sometimes I get really bored and I often had this sudden headache at work… just trying to experience the advantage of drinking tea as they told me, that tea is number one solution for headache…… my headache was like a migraine actually, and that definitely sucks

Ah ya.. by working in the recent job I had lived in Jakarta whereas larger amount of perverts live here as well , dammit!!! I said this according to the facts that everyday I walk or bicycling those perverts at least strike their filthy “psssstt… psssttt” those dirty whispers as if they wish me to glance at them and stripped…. Fuckkk!!!!!!!!!!!

Another story is ive passed that probation and as of now I just finished having sahur… ate meals on the dawn ehhhee.. yes this is the first day of fasting month ramadhan.. my first ramadhan with full time job hehhehe still have to go early in the morning at 8 and go home at 4.. they gave us dispensation yes. ..on Saturday nite I went shopping for stuffs like food containers and a sereal and milk that was all food I got for myself but guess wat I had to get my ass in long bored line.. this time it was quite unusual as the line was longer than previous days.. yeah people were involved in their own paranoid kinda euphoria as they approaching themselves to ramadhan .. that’s a little bit weird to me I mean.. the hypermarket would open as ususal every day but why are these people were stashing tons of foods like the next day gottabe famine day… a bit overwhelmed…

Well I don’t mean to make reversed story but just reminded about wat we did on Friday nite….yeah me and my work mates..titania, emilia, rifa and risti.. we continued to go around Jakarta and finding right spot to take pictures of ….our shoes…. Hahahhahahhah I wonder wat could be sillier than that. Reversing again… around two weeks before as we done our sushi eating at a mall,
we got to explore the mall further and found MCKY shop… a shop that sells all mickey mouse stuffs in it and u know wat it was 90% sale!!!whoaaa I was like.. allright ran find some good for u that doesn’t look cheap .. and yeh I found several shoes…. Tried them one by one until found the fittest one to my monkey feet… :p then I invited my friends along to the shoe rack and they tried them and found them not bad before finally paid them hahahha….back to the finding cool spot for our photogenic shoesss,,, we didn’t find it!!!!!!!!! we went around to different places on the way to the earlier-meant spot.,..like a chocolate store called “dapur coklat” which was still opened on 9:30 pm hehhehehh thought we were the last customer there as only two cups of hot chocs remained…. Turned out we weren’t, two other people came as we got out the store and jumping like crazy to get shot by cameras haahahhahahh…(see picture: me on the left)

another shot

2008-04-02T11:04:00.002+07:00

finally someone gave me a call to do an interview in his company hehehhehe........after 3 weeks in vaccuum. Although he said it's gonnabe my first interview in that company, i dont care... i'll come... i just need a job,and i'll take watever is in front of me hehhehehheh.........btw i take "first interview" as there would be another tests to go--only if i pass this intrvw---- but i dont mind, i surely will do it. again i have to compete with other fellow unemployed hahhahaha.... it's getting exciting i suppose. i just view it in a positive way which is im getting to know the pattern of recruitment tests in some companies hehheheh. this time is the newspaper company and the section i applied is not similar to my major, but i dont care!!!!! i just dont care, hopefully i'll get this job ASAP. coz im tired of doing nothing hehhehehe... btw the interview is on thursday, that means i have one day to do research about the company.. whoaaaaa i wish it's my lucky week this week.....luckluckluck!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-23T10:11:00.003+07:00

or maybe i'll just get into the wild? as wat chris did? hhahhahhahahhaha i'd live as a nomad, but hey i need at least a rifle, to kill a lamb maybe, or i just turn into a vegetarian?
hahha, or or i bring some ransum?but it wont last long, hhhmmmm nah, i decide to stay home... im not at that stage yet,,,, maybe i will in couple of months muahahhaha

2008-03-23T10:06:00.002+07:00

i am sooooo craving for a job!!!!!!!! god, i'll do anything to get one!!!!!

happiness is real when shared

2008-03-08T21:56:00.005+07:00

"happiness is real when shared" is the quote of 'into the wild' in its last minute, whoaaa this movie is definitely one of my favs!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes wisdom comes up after a shocking or exhilarating experience. that's exactly wat happened to chris but sadly he didnt made it at the end. he's dead........ it's like reflection of youth passion and spirit. so blunt...

2008-02-22T09:32:00.003+07:00

oh well, i found one oddity in the last book. on some first pages, it said that becky decided to go back earlier from their honeymoon, then luke persuades becky to go to the next destination which is to malaysia and ended in indonesia. but becky kept up her decision to go back earlier, so be it.. they finally got back two months earlier than the previous plan, one year. for the next pages, as the couple has come back to london, there were these lorries with some souvenirs from indonesia, including gamelan and batik ---man, gamelan is kinda much--da!!!!! i thought they skipped indonesia, so where exactly did they get gamelan? hahhahahahha....who cares though

2008-02-21T11:38:00.001+07:00

Finished!!done it! Ends just like i thought how it'd be like. Kinsela ended it with mistery,whether becky's pregnant or not,i knew she is coz ive read the synopsis of the next shopaholic book hehe. . Turns out that 'can you keep a secret' is not part of shopaholic series books rather it's another story but still funny anyways-vania told me- whoa,cant wait to read another story of becky's hehe . Btw im at nina's at the moment before bak to my boardhouse,still with vania and other old friendsD

2008-02-21T09:08:00.000+07:00

few pages left.......man, it all went like a movie just now

2008-02-20T19:01:00.002+07:00

im at vania's house and still reading becky bloomwood, i didnt stop since this afternoon, i got to hate her awhile coz she's soooo materialistic, and she has got the consequence of it whoaaaa i am carried on......now i get to the part where she regrets all the mess and try to conciliate with every one she had hurt about..... we'll see then.......xoxoxoxox

wat im reading now.........

2008-02-20T12:11:00.004+07:00

---------aight, actually reading is wat im doing in my unemployed,unproductive time like this------it's a funny hilarious story of becky bloomwood!!!!!! sophie made my emotions fluctuates!! one time i feel so annoyed by becky's thoughts and the other time she made me laugh out loud!!!!!!!!!!it's a must read!!!!!!! i also have read the previous series: 'confessions of a shopaholic, shopaholic takes manhattan, shopaholic tied the knot' heeheheheh......... i believe all girls must have felt and thought the way becky has.... it's like a reflection to the girls hehhehe me particularly...... look forward to read the next book hehhehe xoxoxooxo
ps: thanx for vania

officially graduated!!!!!!!

2008-02-20T09:28:00.007+07:00

jobless bitch

2008-02-18T17:10:00.004+07:00

yeh that's wat ive been calling my self recently with... heheehhee..... aight so last weekend, i went to semarang, my hometown, with initial intention to join recruitment test held by hsbc, as i got there, maaaaaannnnnnnn i was like along with other millions of unemployed people in semarang, sharing oxygen to breath-----nah, actually around 800!!! hehheheh but still!!!!!--------the system was crap, as in "walk in interview" kinda recruitment, we were like 20 animals who would fight to catch one food. long queue,uncertain time of result announcement. as i found out later that there would be a psychology test to select who'd be deserved to get an interview, i was like"gee, not again". to flash back wat happened in one week previously, im having this kinda psychology test phobia. i was too afraid to fail, and i did!!!!! i failed that test. it got me frustrated later on, i was questioning my self wat am i gonna do with no jobs? i feel like a loser...... psycho test sounds like a dead end for me...ever since....
and tomorrow morning is going to be my graduation day. yeh the boring sound ceremony but i forced my self to do it sincerely coz however i gotta appreciate my self for wat ive achieved in 3,5 year at uni. but hey, while the other girls have had reserved some salons to do them make over, i did'nt!!!!! yeh.... i just dont feel like it, and i think it's a waste of money.. i also dont have some tailor do my kebaya, i just bought it in local market hahhahahhah it's damn waaaaaayyyyyy cheaper!!!!!! will only wear it once though.........instead i bought my self some eye shadows and eye liners heehehehe i'll do my self a make up, not a heavy one off course. and for hair do, ive bought a cute piece of hairnet hehhehehe i believe those will do!!!!!!!!!!man,i wish i have a job already by now,, but like all my friends said" move on, ran.... tons of opportunities waiting out there..... hehehe" really look forward to one of em neways

ps; i got my self choked by a chewing gum before swallow it eventually, in the middle of my daydreaming in a bus back to jogja yesterday......wat an idiot

fooled by the weather

2008-02-18T17:05:00.002+07:00

just bak from malioboro, got drenched on the way home--not that too drenched anyways-- before i decided to stop by nearest parking lot as the rain seems to get harder! 10 seconds later, after ive got myself covered by raincoat,and ride safely, the rain stops. total dry!! dammit!!

WATCH OUT OF PERVERT!!!!!

2008-02-11T13:48:00.000+07:00

one day before i went to jakarta, i hit an internet cafe around my boardhouse. i was too focused with my monitor as i chatted with Xeron until suddenly and unexpectedly a guy popped out in front of my face. dammit i was shocked!! i said,"what the hell are u doing here?" he said, "hey, ive just walking around in front of u but u didnt pay any attention coz u were concentrating on the computer", i said, "so wat" he replied" hey, i like ur hair, it's cute"----ok, i washed my hair that nite before getting online, as a result, it turned curly, my natural hair is curly, real curly---he asked me if it's real, and i said "off course", then he answered"wat's ur name?" aha!!!! it's a motive!!!!! i said" i dont know, secret" and he keeps pushing to tell my name but i keep saying no. then he walked out....but few minutes later, he popped out back and asked me where i live and whether i'd still be there for the next hour, i just keep ignoring him. finally, he made a guess about where i live until he said the right guess!!!!! shit!!!! what the hell did he want? he's a pervert.. well, tacitly, i kept chatting with Xeron, and she asked me to get out and run and suggesting that i should bring a PEPPER SPRAY OR A KNIFE!!!!hhhmmmmm i think i agree with her, but i dont know where to buy pepper spray unless she'd send me that out...so i think a knife would be more affordable for me!!!!!! hehheheh...

blackout

2008-02-11T13:19:00.000+07:00

Just got bak from jakarta to do a psychology test for Astra Credit Companies, where I hit my first job application as a fresh graduate, and I failed!!!! Damn..but hey u know wat, if I may choose, I wouldn’t choose to work in Jakarta coz it’s damn dirty and crowded as messy. But come what may, all the big companies are located there…….hhhmm wat’s gone just gone then hehhehhehe…. Feels really good to be back to beloved jogja… so hey it’s been ages since I post this blog last time yeh ehehhehe yea many has happened…..a). it’s been a new year 2008

b)im done with that final paper and got a nice mark( A!! yiiipeee)

c) look forward to a boring graduation ceremony at uni (maannnn I hate ceremonial event!!!!!), im gonna make sure I wont look like a clown—with heavy makeups as the previous graduates did!! Naah, I prefer not using any…..i look good naturally hehhehhee

d) have been doing fun for a month

e) just realized that I gotta make job for living,, time to be independent…..feel sorry for my parents

so the psycho test was sick, or I was.. even the girl sat next to me who has a master degree from England didn’t get it through either…..but one of my uni graduates made it. on the first day I arrived in Jakarta, I took a taxi to get into the company just to know where it is located, as I got there and find wat I seek, i then hired an Ojek( people who offer a ride with their motorbike to earn their living) and try to find some hotel nearby, but I found nothing!!!!!! All I found was some board houses, so I just paid one as for 500 thousand rupiahs a month.. damn…..it’s got hell of mosquitos afterall…….

And I couldn’t even sleep since I got there, while I spent the rest of the day just to stay in my room and try to black out. I did read, making calls, didn’t work all of it!!!!! so I took this sleeping pill called “ Lelap”. That was my first trial taking such pill, still didn’t work…. As time keeps running, I could feel my head dizzy and heavy but not tending to fall off. Later on I decided to take another three pills!!!!!!and few seconds later I felt soooo heavy at the top of my body and fell a sleep eventually……..whoaaaaaa that was an extreme way to get a sleep!!!!! But I promised my self to not doing it again… I think I was lucky to get a nice sleep….. well, I didn’t realize that my action could get me into an overdosed effect and I wouldn’t know wat would be happened to me by that hahhAHHAHAHH screw me!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, back to the psychopath test----hehehehheh :p----- man, I really hate that test, next time I’d have to get into that again, I’d buy a guide book first, and learn it deadly-------the result was announced 2 hours afterwards. as I found my failure, I’ll just walk out of the door gracefully, with my head up hheehheh I didn’t even care about it anyway….i believe there are many more opportunities for me out there and here I am looking for most suitable one :-)

i'm illegal

2007-10-24T14:23:00.000+07:00

started in 2004, as i lost my wallet with some cards in it. among those cards including the crucial one, my residential card which stated that i truly am indonesian and live in indonesia. at first i wasnt realize how important that card to me for the next few years, but today as i tried to apply for a new bank account, i was rejected. damn. that's because i dont have a resident card, although ive asked them if i can use my driving licese-- well, that's an id too hehheheh--- but it's not allowed.. whoaaaaaa... ive been looking forward to this , to have a new bank account so i'd be able to save my money in the right place..
god i really hate bureaucracy here,,, to make a renewed id card it'd take complicated ways and not in short time.. first i gotta go back to my home city, and that sux.. coz, i would just deal with guys in charge to sign some form needed as application.. and i'd also deal with some uncertainties if the guys will be there.according to my experience, some government officers are lack of discipline in attendance, sometimes they dont even come to the office,,, in the old days, to get the id proccessing runs quicker than it used to b, people are willing to pay some extra money, yeah some kinda bribery.....i'm not sure if it's still possible these days...i probably will do it if i can hehehehe... dont wanna waste my time anyways

did it..

2007-10-03T16:32:00.000+07:00

finally, i get to pass the so called seminar ***siiiiggggghhhhhh*** i think it was sssooo more into a discussion than a seminar... the teachers were late, as usual but i really appreciate their attendance though hehehhehhe.... the senior one was superseded by other teacher who i was quite intended at first hahhahahaa.... coz the senior whom not other than the dean of the faculty is super duper busy yea watever...... in that discussion room i found no tension at all, i was loosen up hehhe.... so far different than wat ive imagined before!!! i did rehearsal again today myself but it turned out that everything's ok!!!!!!!!! i talked frequently hehhehe now i believe that practice makes perfect...... they gave me good opinion and supportive suggestion to write my paper..... now i gotta really focus on it, that paper,,, i betcha make my own due yea.... hhhmmmmmm 2 months seems ok i guess.. whoaaaa run for it babe!!!!!!!!!....... im so tired just now.....need some sleeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppp....ccccccciiaaaaooooo

wat's news?

2007-10-02T10:56:00.000+07:00

1. i've got a tv now in my room hehhehe : got it from a graduate friend who's about to go back home soon to other island of the country.he sold it for only 200.000 rupiahs!!!!!! super cheap!!!!! and the tv works well... my room laid on the corner of the row and ive got more ventilation than the previous room----oh ya, the room is kinda new as well which none other than the vacant room nextdoor hehheheh... ----and for that, the antenna receiver could receive the wave from my favorite channels which my board house's or other tvs in other girls' rooms couldnt!!!!! called Metro tv, whoaaa lucky me!!!!!! mine is the only one!!!!so i can see oprah show in it yeaaahh actually my intention was to make noise instead of to fulfill a tv addiction, i rarely watch tv anyways, it's just i need some noise in my room and a bit of entertainment, the audio visual one!!!!!! im getting bored of the laptop and sound system haahhaha... in fact those two were already noisy enough but i'm just craved for moooooooorrrrrreeeeeee whoaa
2. tomorrow is gonnabe the battle day for my intelligence: i will face three tester teachers at a time in order to do presentation about wat i'd write!!!!! and it is a must... couldnt postpone it if i want to get graduated ASAP!!!!!! god, im nervous!! ive done something which i wish could overcome it, today i met my friends and doing rehearsal with them!!!!!!! hahhaah as if they were my teachers! theyve graduated thios month so i expected they would give me some suggestion or just asking question that surely would help!!!!!! i really thank them for that hehehheh 3. i skipped fasting!!!!! been three days hehhehe, not proud for the first, coz i did it deliberately!!!!! but for the rest two, they are accident, u know period!!!!! hahhahhaah.. and it supposed to last for the next 6 days maybeeee hehheh.... but it sucks.. meaning that i have to pay for more after this fasting month's finished whoaaaaa consequence!!!!!!

2007-09-29T16:37:00.000+07:00

Hand In My Pocket

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah

I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah

I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby

I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
But I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my friends, yeah
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

skipping exercise

2007-09-18T20:36:00.000+07:00

the commitment is broken!!!!!!! ive officially skipped working out for 5 days in a row whoaaaaa c'mon will power show up:-s so today i just revised my paper proposal and tomorrow is gonnabe it.... i'll notice whether i could go to the next step or make everything over again.. sssshhhh ....some friends are going to bali tomorrow nite , man i bet it must be lots of fun over there..... *looking forward to my own vacation*----which really long way to go and time to reach hehhee, gotta finish my priority but it feels harder without a strong will power...god, i miss my boyfriend.....--da!!!
(((((at the moment))))))) just finished downloading WINAMP coz the old one was a total wreck...just like my recent mind condition..

fasssssssssstttttttttttttttttt

2007-09-14T09:24:00.000+07:00

second day of holy fasting month hehehe feels good, though still a bit sleepy hehehhehe...... was trying to get up early at the dawn 3 am.... my alarm this time worked really well coz i used to wreck the old ones hehhehe sometimes i think ive set the time right but apparently it wasnt, i had no clue wat's wrong with the old days' alarms, maybe they set their own time or didnt take any command from a sloth owner like me whoahahahhaaaaaa.......good side about this month is that i dont have to wait to use some cardio tools at the gym heehhe..... sometimes they use it selfishly get themselves unnoticed about others' existence who also pay to work out hahahhaaaa...... yea i keep going to the gym, at least at the first day of the month heehe..... dont know wat happens today and for next, hope i still got some energy to sweat myself out

a real strive begins

2007-09-12T11:27:00.000+07:00

yeh, my final paper's proposal has been approved by the department and now i must proceed it up to the end of the story whoahahhahaa... sounds convincing yea hahhaha.... well, i deemed this little achievement as a breakthrough regarding my last proposal was rejected hehehehe....... now the teacher has set a deadline for me to finish the first chapter and it's only one week!!!!!! hmmmm today's supposed to be it but apparently i havent done yet hehehe..... it still needs a bit finishing touch,, god, i hope i can pass this one so i can just continue to do the latter task hehehe...... sooner is better i guess.. aight maybe i got a lil bit intimidated by a friend who has passed all of the final paper shit by this monday--two days ago!!!!!! meaning that she's graduated...... whoaaaaa she won the earliest graduate of my year, mann i reckon it awesome!!!!! she deserves it anyway, i believe she worked hard for it and that's just wat i need to at the moment *luck rani luck* Gott sei Dank!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im backkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-04T11:57:00.000+07:00

Yay, kkn’s over!!!!!! I was officially back to Jogja at August 31^st,,, I was craving to write ever since but turned out I was too sluggish even to get outta my room hehheheh I spent these past two days watching movies hehehe…….overall, kkn was quite fun but as we’re bak here, I began to receive dodgy smses from that village people, god dammit!!!!! Here comes the real human nature, perv!!!!!!! I thought they were shy and humble youth!Some of its youngsters keep making prank calls,and shitty sms!! I really don’t like the situation, I don’t get it wat their intention is, annoying I guess! Who the hell gave my number to them anyways L enough with it though, I wont change my number this time,nor answer such anonymous calls.. by the way.. I went to Uni today and I found nobody in it hehheheh,,, I mean somebody I know.. only few people familiar..but the rest are just freshmen, so I plan to make up my life after KKN which is to start writing final paper.. I realize that now im already in senior year and just don't wanna waste my time in it.. I could be left behind if I do so.. now I can feel the previous seniors’ feelings in waiting the teacher to come to at least listen to their idea, and if lucky would sign the abstract of each chapter they had written whoaaaaaaaaaa…… I really feel it just today.. I went early from home, at 9—well, I guess it wasn’t earlier, coz I know teachers don’t come earlier than that unless they got a class to teach--- but guess wat ive got none in the teacher’s room!!!! Damn.. luckily I met a friend and we chitchatted a little while until a teacher I didn’t even expect come right up( 20 minutes later), then I hit the uni library and got more obnoxious by the fact that the internet connection was taking forever and ever!!!!!!! Afterwards I decided to go back to find the targeted teacher, and told by a friend that he was just in few minutes ago before he went out later whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sniff sniff.. It’s the first time I wanted to meet him so much to hand him my paper plan, God!! I gotta keep passionate and calm.. now im in the middle of waiting for him until 12 -1 pm which gonnabe his next class, wish to meet him today before the sluggish part of me emerge back haahhahah…….

kiddo!!!!!!

2007-08-10T16:21:00.000+07:00

just finished teaching english at local primary skool....... ok i admit it, those children's moods are really unexpectable.. last week, the class i thought would be disaster remained well.. in sum, my last week's teaching was exciting.. but today, i found another jerk crowd!!!!!actually this class used to be a good class but today it went all upside down.. every week i teach three classes consists of 4th, 5th, and 6th grader...5th grader used to be the most "full of chaos" one, but they have been changed into a calmer one by these past two weeks.... now the sixth grader has turned into little bastards... hahhahha im being mean here, well although not all of them but a small crowd..i was just ignore them afterall..last but definitely not least is 4th graders, "the ay ay sayer" hhahhaha they're good..this experience has gotten me some flashbak to my little child of age...i was soo naughty as well and i have made my teacher angry sometimes now it all just bak to me hahhhaa think i got the karma.. here comes me with great appreciation of wat my teachers has done to me so i can write this thing here and now hahahaaaaaaa god, hope my future children would be nice ones

3 weeks to go

2007-08-06T06:42:00.000+07:00

now im in the middle of the rush and passion..... rush because, i still got three programs left for my kkn and i only got three weeks to get em done but officially, all those must be wrapped in this month's 14th... yipeeee... means i'll have more time breathing afterwards hehheheh exactly before the uni take us bak to jogja in 31st which i cant wait.. i cant wait to freely see my boyfriend whoaaahahhahhah.. i also cant wait to feel my own room and water in the bathroom which i can use unlimitedly hahhahha.......the hardest one is that i cant wait to get my final paper started!!!! passion, i have to do them carefully so everything will be done well, and i cannot be unorganized , some friend told me that i always get panicked days before my program due, which at the end everything was running quite OK hehehheheh

i found an internet cafeee heeeeerrrrreeeee!!!!

2007-07-07T07:27:00.000+07:00

wwwwhhhhhoooaaaa, this morning i planned to flee out of village where im in charge for my KKN
and here i am now few kilos away out of it , so here it is small town called " wates"... and indeed it really is a small town..... lucky us..... we found internet cafe here hehhehheheh...... it's not bad..... like the ones in jogja!!!!! but as we asked the local residents, they always pointed at this place so i bet it's the one and only in town hehehhehhehe...... hell with it..... im just excited to get in a bit higher civilisation again hehehhee im just being mean here..... aight just regard it as the first euphoria of mine, afterall ive got used to live in a village, and it's not so bad actually..... coz i could get fresher air and i feel my soul relieved there......(boooooo) hahhahhahaha.... so at the spare time, i tried to recapitulate wat ive been doing every single day on my first week in KKN. but apparently i wasnt so commited to write my daily activities...... there are only few days of the week instead of "every single day" hehhehehe, but it doesnt matter...... and i got some picture of em anywayz.. heheee the first picture was taken in a wrecked ceremony held by uni as it released the students to get off for KKN hheheehhe...... the ceremony was a piece of shit i guess...... not much necessity ive got out of it hahhaha i even doubt it if it could be called as "ceremony" hhahhahhaha it's more like a freakin crowds!!!! yea watever...... here are the pics....

Day 1^st:

We went from jogja at 8.30 and we got some plan re arranged regarding how plenty the goodies are that we all brought up!!!!!!! I myself decided to hitchhike a mate who rides a motorbike along, and too bad that I forgot to bring a helmet with me hehehhehee luckily the rider got two helmets, hhahahaa wat a nice prep!! Btw that’s not the only thing I forgot, actually I was asked to bring a roll of an electrical plug, I know that’s fatal, but another friend had two already hahhahhaa,, lucky us, clumsy me……..well, I was trying to get on time on the spot where we were supposed to be off from, while the rest of the kids aren’t hehhehhehe dat’s the consequence I guess ahhahahaha, tricky me….. anyway, here I am now in the middle of nowhere hahahhaha…… kidding ,

We live in a house of the chief’s and the room where the girls live is very modest but I find it OK, it doesn’t matter for us to live here, instead we are really grateful that we are allowed to hehehee…. On our way here, I found some amazing views along the road, I saw some locals walking without any shoes on while it was damn hot out there, I swear….. I was just WOWing them myself….. well, as we got here this afternoon, my only problem is how to get along with localities…. Well, maybe that’s common for everybody considering it really is my first time being here, and I have to remind myself that I’d be here for the next two months!!!!!!!!! OK , honestly that is my real problem, it really shows as me and my unit mates met and greeted the locals, we were very very nervous as in wasting most times quiet!!!!!!!! Shit man, we only spoke out as they asked us questions!!! Shame on us I admit it…… I don’t know if the rest of them felt it but I did….. wat makes it worse is that this situation gets me lost and wondering if I could get any program plans relevant with the condition of the local residents… dammit…. I desperately need COMMUNICATION to figure out else’s needs…… man,I wish myself all best of luck here…….

Day 4^th

I bet we’ve got used to live here already, things are getting better than the first day only one is not, the temperature. it’s getting colder and colder everynite, and two nites ago I froze my ass off!!! I was breathing smokes, it wasn’t like we live in Indonesia hhahhahhaa……. So last nite I did a well preparation for everything. I wore a pair of socks, a long thick training pants, a double layer of shirt and a thick jumper, at last but not least, a damn thick blanket!!!!!! Haahahha, and I guess it works…….. I had a very nice sleep;;;;;;then I woke up very early in the morning to do pray, then did shower afterwards hehehehee…….also, I think this experience gave me more time to do a simplest but healthy exercise, Walking!!!!! Yea, we do walking more often here to get to another place, wat makes it healthier is we got no pollution here!!!!!!!! Yippeeee……. We really live in nature… only few people own a motorbike here, and they don’t bother us with a filthy gas heheheee…around us is only jungle and pathways and I can feel the fresher air here….. on the other hand, we’re provided by healthier food as well….. we got more vegetables and fruit as our meal hhehehee…. By that I don’t need to spend more money on food as usual hehehehee……….our relations with the locals are getting better than before….. they could recognize us at hand and I think they understand wat we’re trying to do here….. by doing more interaction, I myself come up with ideas about wat program I should make……. Now im in effort finishing my proposal for a newspaper company in jogja to make em give us aids by contributing their daily paper in here as to socialize how important newspapers are for locals to get infos from outside and to stimulate them to read……the other program I plan to do is to play documentary films, the simple ones of course, ive got this movie about last year’s massive earthquake disaster and it won last year’s doc.film festival which I happened taken part in it as a volunteer committee. I believe this would encourage ones who see it to make an opinion,and it’s good to incorporate those opinions in a small kinda discussion after wards hhehehhehe……..the last program I plan to make is to spread flyers about dengue fever issues……. The idea came up as I was hit by these damn mosquitos as I fallen asleep on my first day here……. Besides, i can see millions of mosquitos’ fetus inside the bathtub where I live in!!!!! dammit….. no wonder it’s a heaven for mosquitos….

Well i just wish my self all best of luck in doing all those…… I cant wait to get the programs done so I can go on with my life as we send bak to jogja and I can focus on something else which is not less important, FINAL PAPER!!!!!!! Whooooooaaaaaaaaa…..i just cant wait to do it and to see my boyfriend soon…… I miss him sooo bad………

Day 5th

We went nowhere today, actually me and a mate planned to ditch few hours to go back to jogja but it’s all knocked off……. Our teacher came by all of a sudden and it was unpredictable….well there’s a brightside of it, we could asked her questions about the running of programs…… afterall, we spent most times today at home doing this piece of program design report which I haven’t done yet up to now hahhahaha…… no wonder coz I was focusing my mind finishing a proposal for one of the damn programs----to a newspaper company---and luckily, it’s all done already……. By this time, I’ll try to finish my design report by tonite….. the due is on Sunday anyway, ….

Mann…… I have enough eaten today, I feel so stuffed, and I can feel my look gets messer day by day……. As I look at my self on a mirror,I see acnes growing on it whoaaaaaaa!!!!!! , yea nothing I can do though….. I just have to wait till I get bak to jogja, and feel the cleaner water as before hheehehhe……..at nite, as we are ran out of energy, a friend said, we got to visit another resident’s house to talk about his proposal to revive the masjid activity… whoa…. The girls looked soo tired and I bet I looked so sick hahahhaa………. Not again, please……. Ok so it has become routine for us everytime we visit one’s house in this village, that we are always been asked the brand same and old questions: “ where dya come from?”, dya know this person in yer city?---- hhahhahhaa, this one keeps me laugh,,,,, yea rite… as if only few man live in our home city hehehhee….. such a naïve………but I am quite understand now… I like that expression of those local people… however they welcome us very friendly I feel really blessed by that.. coz.. this afternoon, a friend from other unit of kkn, and whom plotted waaayyyyyyy farther than our place here, complaining about how bad the group organization is, how messed up their programs are, how not good the overall situations are including the local people… that’s all just fucked up!!!!!!!!gee, thanks god.. u put in in the rite place…… I feel sorry for him and the group though, I wish he could handle the problems soon, I just wish all the best for him , and I keep hoping the good thing for me too here hehhehe

2007-06-28T10:24:00.000+07:00

3 days before i'm off for kkn, whoaa....... wondering how it's like over there,...... man, i hope i can survive hehehhehe......so this morning ,uni isn't as crowded as before, i bet most students are going home as the exams are finished last week.... or they might have vacation somewhere,, wat a nice imagination hhahahaa........i spent the last two days in my room, and that wasnt boring, regarding i'd leave it in few days heehehee..... last nite was unexpectedly raining and it sux, coz i was drenched and got sick at home .... it supposed to be dry season by these months!!!!!!

here goes.....

2007-06-24T10:13:00.000+07:00

Yesterday I and khena went to the Festival Kesenian Yogyakarta (FKY) or Yogyakarta Art Festival, well I saw nothing much though hheehehhee I tend to call it as the resemblance of little Malioboro where they sell stuffs from details artcraft to the fine ones like painting…… well, the paintings surely differs it from malioboro!! But the rest was not more than malioboro ,,,,,, the price of the stuffs even higher than those in malioboro……but afterall I bought two stuffs there hhehehehe, they are thong/ sandal(actually i was confused about which one i should take coz both are cute!!!!) and a cheap compact wallet hehehhee I did ask some of the sellers there wat they think about this year’s FKY regarding few things from visitor’s rate to the participation of artists and they said

It is not as crowded as the previous years---they skipped the 2006’s FKY due to last year’s massive earthquake disaster around Jogja-- . the visitors aren’t as many as the previous year’s. well I bet it is coz it’s sooo obvious!! I can see only the committees who enjoy free live music there hahhahaa…….. I didn’t see many visitors’ euphoria……. That’s not all, some booths were also closed while the festival is still on!!!!!!!! I mean They didn’t sell their stuffs that day…

But overall, me and khena were quite enjoying our window shopping yesterday, seems that im quite lucky to hit it that day, coz the sellers said “one way to attract more visitors is to sell the stuffs cheaper than the day before’ hahhaaha so then I got this thong for only 25.000 rupiahs and a 3000 wallet hehhehhe

Afterwards, we hit malioboro to see if there’s any sling bag ----that really caught my EYES and got me drooled in FKY--- offered in cheaper price.. and SURPRISE!!!! We found it!!!!!!!!exactly the same!!!! they sell 30.000 in FKY and I just have to pay 25.000 in malioboro hehehehe, not bad……..

But u know wat, the setting is quite kool in FKY, they set this huge posters with attractive paintings, but I found only few installations there, nevertheless we did some photographs with em hehheehhe……

I always am interested with the place where they hold this event, it’s in Benteng Vredeburg( some old Dutch heritage fort)… it’s got its own sense of history whenever I get in there, although at nite the sense is more of spooky ones hehehhehheh but the design of the building is artful. It used to be a Dutch fort plus prison for indo rebel at that time.

2007-06-22T23:24:00.000+07:00

whhoooooaaaaaaa finally the exam's weeks are over, and it's gottabe my last one. by next month i'll have a field study and work or watever it's called then afterwards is another battlefield for me......final paper!!! yea , the main prerequisite to get graduate..... man... i gotta start it from now, but actually im still kinda lost about wat to write hhehhehehhe... watever, i'd just spent the last week of this month just to have fun yea.... and i quite got it tonite, my mood is already enlightened, and ive got few movies to watch while sloth my self out---i made this word up myself---- hahahaa pfiuh.......

2007-06-21T09:49:00.000+07:00

me and the girls of the boardhouse hehhehehe

2007-06-21T09:24:00.000+07:00

laila and me are posed promoting some beverages but we didnt get paid for it hahahahahha just because we wanted to and it's stupid hhaahhahah nah, kidding we just didnt know wat to hold as we took these pics heehhehe

2007-06-20T16:05:00.000+07:00

hahhahahahaha, i just laughed at my self for being such emo, whoaaaa
life is too good to feel bad but wat if yer good life is distracted by some jerks who inadvertently make it feels sooooo badddddd? i say move on and laugh at it hahahhahahha

sorrow

2007-06-20T15:55:00.000+07:00

the weather today and the late few days are damn cloudy.... it's dark,,,,, i hate it...... maybe it affects my mood at hand, yea... i feel neglected by the one i love,but because of that feeling too.... i decided to take it all.... i think i gotta have more passion in me........

2007-06-18T11:27:00.000+07:00

i got one day off before continuing my exam by tomorrow whoa, it's the last week of final exam.....which really gottabe my final one hehhehehe....... i'm quite relieve that ive passed the subject which i'm not into very much... the one with a killer teacher hahhahha..... it was last thursday ,,,, pfiuhhhhhh.... i dont care wat score im gonna get !!!!!!
by the way,few minutes ago i just got a message from my very very old friend.... that junior hiskool mate of mine hahahahhaa........ she noticed me finally.... man, i really wanna see her now as i get the chance to hit bandung again heehhe.......but im stuck here with craps..vacation seems so far to reach.....really look forward to it neways
wat? so is it me who feels sick of works or am i just being lazy? hhahaa watever it is vacation is like a dream for me now........ i got plans to do until the the end of the year so i could afford my graduation on time----GOD,if u're really there, bless me on that!!!!!!_____ well, i did a little analysis of my latest works...... and ive got a conclusion that if we do it simultaneously without a long skip, we'll get ourselves encouraged to finish it soon...... i mean,,, there's this kinda force inside ourselves to act on it, hhhmmmm perhaps the effect is different on everbody,
ok then i think im just starve my self here, gotta run to eat!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-14T20:12:00.000+07:00

today i almost break my hand, as i keep writing for two exams..... bad, i bet this is the consequence of using computer more often than to do the hand write.... it's been months since i did hand write for last exam hehehehhe......ever since, i dealt with my keyboard everytime i'd like to write, or at least i did only scrap notes instead of academical writing..... whoaaaaaa.....since i was in primary skool, my hand writing was a total crap........ only few people could read it hehhehhehehh..... but when it comes to exam, i always tried my best in writing, but it only holds for first pages, afterall, it remains crap hehhhehe...... this condition continued until now.. maybee i was too focus in answering the questions rather than to concentrate and do a good hand writing,,,,, blah...... who cares though, as long as the answer is right i dont think that matters much hehhehheheh...... but i also got this warning from my teacher many many times,,,, they used to write their opinion bout my handwriting and ask me to do better next time,,,, but still it doesnt change anything hehhehe... but once i got badluck, i never know that this teacher cares so much about this kinda shit , i just felt that i never done something wrong and always hand her the assignments in due, but at the end i got C for the results of my hardwork in one semester!!!!!!! damn.... i figured out from my seniors that she hates my kinda handwriting, ....wat a pro!!!! now i feel grateful coz most of my assignments should be done in compie writing, that's good, i bet my teachers got their eyes fatigue by my handwriting heheehhe

gecko killer!!

2007-06-12T09:31:00.000+07:00

so yeh, i didnt do it on purpose, yesterday i killed two poor geckos in a day, the first one was about 11 am. i saw this gecko on a bathroom floor with the body got upside down, actually i wonder how come... then i took a broom and tried to turn the body back, it didnt work!!!!!! so i just leave him there alone , few minutes later i come to check if it's alive, but it didnt move, so i reckon he's dead!! then i went bak to my room, but i couldnt stand to see him again just to make sure if it's really dead......and yes indeed it's dead!!!!!i'm sad though but wat comes next is contrary to wat i feel, i swept it outta the bathroom and go to a hot spot where we use to hang the laundry to dry....then i just left it there....... and i went outta the house to feed my self and everything, and when i came bak, the dead body was already surrounded by starving ants!!!!!!!!!1 eeeeeeewwwwhhh poor him.... and cruel me........
the second story happened at the nite, well mid nite exactly, i was kinda sleepy as i forced my self to get up to have a pee, as got into the bathroom i slam the door harshly and loudly, but i heard some little sound on downward, i saw this tiny creature stucked between the door and the wood , dammit man, another gecko!!!!so itried to open the door smoothly but it didnt work, his body hampers the door to open, then i pulled it hard to get the door opened, finally it workd, pfiuh, the gecko was unrecognizable anymore, his neck are cut and i can see a bit slimy fluid over his body, wat a lame...... i skipped using that bathroom afterwards and moved into the next bathroom. and this morning i heard one of the girls screaming out loud and it woke me up suddenly!!!!!! damn. she freaked out of the dead gecko,.......god, forgive me please................

2007-06-09T21:56:00.000+07:00

apparently this whole week is kinda wasted.... yeh, i had lots of fun and just neglect other undone assignment, God!!! so tonite is gottabe another start......think im just procrastinating by running away from my routinity for awhile, damn, im not sorry though hehehe.....now im bak to be a last minute girl anyway. ok so i heard that israel had offered to give Golan Heights bak to Syria, hhhmmmmm sounds dodgy... as we know that all this time Golan is used by Israel to be its military base so israel could do the surveillance around middle east region, and as compensation, syria must cut off its relationship with Iran and contribution to any radical movement in mid east esp. those who fight israel,,, hhmmm such a prisoner's dilemma yea....syria is known as one of weapon suppliers for Hezbollah in last year war fighting Israel in Lebanon, and i once read in a US mag, that Assad--Syria's head of state--would never compromise with Israel's occupation of Palestine region.... hhmm i really wonder wat he'd decide about the latest Israel's offer.....sometimes we are faced with 'hard to refuse' choice and we're kinda floating whether to keep commit or just decommit our present stance. well, israel's interest is quite clear here, it feels threatened with iran's nuclear program which US also alarmed about. or else, israel is trying to wreck the present "alliance pattern" in mid east, whereas Syria is going along well with iran recently, not a bad strategy though, but is israel serious about the offer, apparently not really coz inside its parliamentary house had come up factionalism between those who agreed the repatriation of golan height and those who say no. it seems like olmert find no other way out to get his credibility back and face saved regarding israel's lost in last year lebanon war. he's been asked to resign by parliament and big part of israel's people anyways. and i bet, israelis would be so angry to lose some of its occupied region, poor olmert. also, i think syria won't just accept the offer and sacrifice its good relations with iran or quit contribute to any movements, besides, syria did it illegally and tacitly smuggled weapons to the movement, in the other hand, syria has always been denied its involvement in lebanon war of the israel's allegation that syria had contribute weapons to Hezbollah...... yea both sides are not innocent and syria's just following the path, making israel pay bak for wat it's done either in a clean or dirty way

dig it

2007-06-06T12:55:00.000+07:00

how does it feel to meet a very very old friend? like finding a treasure!!! happened to me last week, i accidentally met my junior hiskool mate, and she was surprised to see me, well, i did too, and by that time i asked her about one of my bestfriends whom i never catchup since i graduated hiskool.......... i miss em!!!!! and i miss her as well..... and just today, i found her at friendster, and she changed a bit, mann i wish i could see her again hehehheheh.....by the way,this morning ive finished a paper which due is about one week to go eheheeheehe.... well, u may call me last minute girl but i rule this time haahhahaa........ i still got one paper to do neways..... it's gottabe my last semester before i'll strive to get graduated by writing a bunch of final paper whoaaaaaaaaaa.......hopefully i'd get there alive hehhehhee..... so now im sitting in a quite new cafe in town, and the menus taste CRAP, blah.......but the internet connection is not bad though hehhehe.... just like wat xeron said, anything could happen in a first trial hehehe....... apparently i did "hehehehe" a lot here , it supposed to mean that im happy, well am i? hhhhmmmm pretty much

2007-06-01T11:59:00.000+07:00

there's nothing cooler than to sit and relax in the middle row right in the middle seat with no one on the right nor left sides inside the movie, wat a nice point of view that was!!!!........ i had it yesterday and i also didnt have to stand to cram in line to get a ticket....whoaaahahahhaahaa dat was a trick!!!! i came at the first play of the day, 11 AM hehheheh..... skipped my last class of the semester........ i was really alone, maybe to some others that'd be sux to hang around all by oneself, yea i know that is but not me!!!!!!!! yea, i kinda get used to it though but i found it kool, i was like a queen inside hahhahhaaa.... no child whining around, no giggles from upper rows hehehee...... [perfect!!!!!!!! i could just feel free to put my bag with tons of smuggled beverages in it on the next seat hehehee...... yea, it's true!!!!!!! it is forbidden to bring foods or drinks from outside the cinema, silly!!!!!!! actually it was my first to deal with this kinda rules, well, in a few other cinemas ive found no such silly rules anyways.... so yea.... it was 3rd"pirates of the carribean 's movie,,,,,, kool movie, im crazy about johny depp!!!!!!! his act is brilliant, i watched another movies of his as well, one of my fav. is "secret window" whereas he acted as a schizophrenic,,,, wow....heehhee

on a friend's roof

2007-05-27T11:33:00.000+07:00

2007-05-24T10:21:00.000+07:00

in the midst of 2 hours before my next class, the boring class in between the 1st and 2nd is skipped by the teacher, yippeeee.....hehhehhehehe ive just few minutes here but already feel bored, wat am i gonna do next in this sunny day to spend my next spare 1,5 hours? think i'll catch a becak and just hit a nearest mall and have an ice cream there.... mmmmhhhh yummy,,,,*drool*

2007-05-23T11:55:00.000+07:00

Mannn I think I got my self brainwashed of sayyid Quthb’s thought….. I don’t know why but I think im started to kinda admire him!!!!! Whoaaaaaa……. Wat’s with me? Don’t u ever realize that by reading some other person thoughts and get our mind really focused in it we could just get carried away by his thought? I wonder how we can stand tough to our previous stance…. not that my mind is quite vulnerable but it must have anything to do with the brain mechanism hahhahhahaha boooorrrrriiinnnngg!!!!!!
well, today is real hot and still working on my paper T_T ...

perfect song for a perfect day

2007-05-21T08:58:00.000+07:00

High school seemed like such a blur,
I didn't have much interest in sports or school elections.
And in class I dreamed all day, 'bout a rock 'n' roll weekend.

And the girl in the front of the room,
So close yet so far y'know she never seemed to notice,
That this silly school-boy crush wasn't just pretend.

Life goes by so fast, you only want to do what you think is right.
Close your eyes and then it's past - story of my life.
Story of my life.
Story of my life.
Story of my life.

And I went down to my old neighborhood,
The faces have all changed, there's no one left to talk to.
And the pool hall I loved as a kid is now a 7-11.

I went downtown to look for a job,
I had no training, no experience to speak of.
I looked at the holes in my jeans and turned and headed back.

Life goes by so fast, you only want to do what you think is right.
Close your eyes and then it's past - story of my life.
Story of my life.
Story of my life.
Story of my life.

Good times come and good times go,
I only wish the good times would last a little longer.
I think about the good times we had and why they had to end.

So I sit at the edge of my bed,
I strum my guitar and I sing an Outlaw love song.
Thinkin' bout what you're doin' now and when you're comin' back.

Life goes by so fast, you only want to do what you think is right.
Close your eyes and then it's past - story of my life.

Wat a beautiful morning!!!!!!

2007-05-21T08:43:00.000+07:00

Today I woke up quite early coz I planned to hit the uni’s library which got AC inside plus hotspot with damn limited host. But as I got here---in another library with only some electric fans in it—that library was already fulled with postgrad. Students!!!!! Whoa I was late, I thought I wouldn’t be coz I come only 30 mins after it opened its door!! Now im stucked here again but no probs, actually the reason I go out earlier was to get my paper done here hehhehehhe….. now im full of spirit, way to go gal!!!! wat makes today perfect is the sun!! finally it shines after few cloudy days lately hehhehe…… but I was too hurry to get my clothes washed out and use the chance drying em under the sun, badd……

no longer stucked!!!!!

2007-05-20T09:56:00.000+07:00

thank god these crappy dayoffs will be over in 14 hours from now!!!!! really miss the rushy times to get the assignment done rather than acting sloth during day off hehehehehehe..... dont know why but my spirit of working would get thrusted in a busy kinda athmosphere.... wherever im in this busy surrounding then i 'd force my self to do things which make me busy as well......weird though hahahahaa....now im occupied with a paper about this extremist pioneer Mr. Sayyid Quthb, he's a former leader of Ikhwanul Muslimin, an islamist movement from Egypt, it's kinda hard to find his either biography or picture on the internet, but his thoughts were believed has influenced osama bin laden to take his action ,,, whoa..... im kinda lost of how to proceed my paper, damn... i wish i could understood arabic..hahhahhaha wat has it to do with it? well, unfortunately the sources that ive got use kinda mixed language between english, indonesian and arabic hahahhaha luckily my boyfriend understands some of em, but still...btw since i joined this class of mideastern political movement, i get interested to know more about my religion... i admit it at first this religion is kinda offspring from one of my parents, and i just follow it...... but in fact there are heaps of probs inside the follower of islam esp. those live in arab land.. evidently, some of the political movement over there have been trying to subvert present gov't which got influenced by western country such as USA. they wanna get the gov't back to the shari'ah law. and for many many years of 20th century, some islamic thinker arised and tried to advice solutions for the problems. some of them are reformist regarding they've taken education in western countries as well, so their thoughts are kinda balanced islamic tenet and the present world situation, and some of the rest are tend to radically thoughts although once they also got some education in the west. one of them is Sayyid Quthb. he was hung to death in Nasser era in 1966. one of his controversial thoughts is about modern jahiliyyah(pre-islamic ignorance). he concluded todays muslim s are belonged to jahiliyyah people as they live modern kinda life. he also summarize that this sort of muslims dont know really well about their essence of religion, whoaaa am i belong to one of them.... maybe if he's alive now and i get to meet him, he'd point his finger on my face and say " u are jahiliyyah bitch" hahahahhahha...........damn , that would be soooo mean of him!!!!!!!!watever,, i just take the brightside of it,,, a curiousity has finally emerged on me, whoahahahah, curiosity to learn about al-qur'an, to prove if these thinker is right or wrong from my point of view.... aight now time to go back to studyyyyyy........*sick*

stucked

2007-05-18T16:19:00.000+07:00

stucked in :
a). rains
b). love-hate relationships
c). orientation of life

wanna get out of here.........

faces of relieve souls hahahah

2007-05-17T14:36:00.000+07:00

4 days off in a week!!!!!!

2007-05-17T14:10:00.000+07:00

yippee as usual the gov't has prolonged a day off by this week, considering this friday lays in between a red date thursday and a weekend saturday hahahhahah.....it happens many times since the beginning of this year... a good chance to do vacation with family or friends but also as i used to be, alone and look for fun myself hehehhehe...... maybe our country has the most day offs in the world hahhahhaha....... sometimes it sux to not doing anything and just slothing around the bed... then i encouraged my self to get up earlier this morning and have my room cleaned up and get the dust off!!!!! hahahha i felt so relieve as i finished doing it,, actually cant remember when was the last time im cleaning it!!!!!! hehehheh now i believe that the atmosphere of cleanliness may affect our moods... btw i really miss the sunshine.. it's been real cloudy upon jogja for three days which is sux!! cant get the clothes off dried!!!! damn, i thought this month is supposed to be dry season since the weather was real hot in the earlier days...... until three nights ago as i got drenched by the rains..... whoaaa... unpredicted!! hey actually it feels kinda weird to not working at nite hehehhehe.... i miss it sometimes , gotta find cool things to do at nite then......watching movie has always enlighten me at nite hehehee sounds boring huh, i wish i could get outta this town for few days but it sux when u are poor in such long dayoffs hahahhah.....anyways, the picture above was taken at my last nite workin at the coffeeshop hehhehe, me with illa, and a half face of cumi, workmates ... will surely miss em

whoaaaa free time!! and jobless at last

2007-05-16T09:58:00.000+07:00

finally, last nite was the last nite i work in kedaikopi whoaaa...... relieve plus sad..... coz it means im gonna miss my friends there sniffs!!!!!!it was a dynamic 10 months.....i dont know if im changed into a better one or stay the same... but at least i know wat others think of me..... i love my workmatesss

2007-05-12T19:48:00.000+07:00

the chocolate milkshake i just sipped was a total crap!!!!!!damn.... well im here tonite one hour away from jogja and get stranded in "a reddish" restaurant with a weird atmosphere hahahhaha......... the waiters act like thugs, they sit next to the customers to take orders and dress like a punk hahahhaa funny though...... well, i got informed about this place by a friend whom i met in the train on my way here,,,, here's the city where my grandparents live.. and that friend recommended me this place if i'd like to get online.....i bet this place is a family customers oriented kinda restaurant as i can see at the moment , there are heaps of little kids with the parents and im the only one who is alone here T_T but it's ok hehehehehehh im a good friend with my self though hehehhehe im pretty glad that it's such a good evening here without rains, instead it was damn hot in the afternoon.......the city is not as crowded as jogja and it feels soo good that i can feel a bit "silence" even for a moment, it's like a backyard.... heehehe moreover this whole week has got my mind screwed with tons of assignments and problems, pfiuh....

shit really happens!!

2007-05-10T10:51:00.000+07:00

Have u ever had a deadlock in yer mind as u are in front of public and it comes up for u to do a speech in a presentation while u did such a well preparation beforehand? Well I just did!!!!! Whoaaa my worst presentation of the semester!! I was like stung as the slide of the powerpoints pop up, didn’t know where to start……. The presentation was supposed to get started about 1,5 hour earlier, as me and group mates really ready, but the teacher didn’t stop talking and it was quite boooriing….we were like “ mann… let’s just get started!!” …. As the time comes I was totally petrified in front of the class, well, I was joking in front of em…. Thank god I got ur enlightenment about 2 minutes later….. then I could realize that I am alive and speak out fluently……whoaaa still it feels embarrassing!!! It was my worst!!, plus one of the group mates didn’t appear as he got sick and be treated in a hospital,,,, wat makes it wayyy worse is that nobody’s asking us a question in the Q&A session… it means nothing!!! Well, I’m not wondered ,, they might already get bored of the unstoppable speech our teacher gave us previously,,, some of em look sleepy as well……. I would be so if I were one of the audience.

maenche Mensch andern sich nie !!!

2007-05-08T10:46:00.000+07:00

the movie is about three youngsters called themselves "the edukators" who are also anti capitalist activists, they sneaked into rich people's house at nite and redecorate the furnitures, so they got em screwed up... at the end of their actions they left a message to the owner about how fucked up they are with their wealth or else how bad the world is as the result of the existence of people like em!!! one message i like from this movie is "maenche Mensch andern sich nie" which means "some people dont change"... yea i guess that's right... everybody has a nature of wannabe more than others, more in everything...and it has become a human's character to enjoy a wellness he/she got without paying attention to the surroundings. well, i do though sometimes....it's only us who can limit our satisfaction level, people are proned to not want to be considered as weak by others, that's why they keep their position steady and committed to get themselves stronger than before. just dont get tricked of the change of someone's behavior which come in a short term towards us, they're still the same basically, they do "change" only for self saving,for their own interest, well i might sound skeptical, but ive been there done that hahahhaha it's the reason i didnt vote in the latest general election in this country... it's kinda ridiculous for some parties who keeps candidating people from the last authoritarian regime, once my teacher asked me who i voted that time and i just i said "abstain" hahhahha...... i just dont believe all craps they promised the constituents. those stupid politicians got money and they just want more,,,, why would i open a way for em to do that by my vote? hahhaha.... never...besides the states dont get us more more welfare, yeah at least in the state i live in....we get our welfare by our own efforts, and we still have to pay the state for a tax, and no development happens.. the environment remains crappy, flood comes every year, people in insulated areas are suffered in starvation........whoaa... no change happened after we pay taxes....ups.. nah, at least change happens in the politicians' bank account......

2007-05-08T09:20:00.000+07:00

yesterday i had another espresso after such a while since i had it last time.... at first i was kinda "awaken" then few minutes later, whooaaa... my stomach feels like strangling!!!!!! damn... couldnt even stand up steadily..... yea... it hurts a lot, need a fresh air to breath in.... wat makes it worst was that i was at work!!!!!! i got 1,5 hours left so i can just run home.... shit man, it reminds me of my last typhoid symptoms thing. now i really have to watch my apetite, it sux when we cant just eat or drink wat we want, yea well, im not the one who had such gastric disorder caused by coffee, few friends of mine do so... nevertheless i dont think i would stop having cappucinno or other variants of espresso *naughty me*... all i have to do is just to get my self fed first before i have coffee... i only had a piece of meat yesterday so i figured it didnt help much hehehhehe.... i might have to get rice or something heavier first, whoaaa....gotta make myself stuffed up first heehehe btw this month gottabe the last month i work there, i surely gonna miss all mates. we've through bad and good times together. and i feel sorry for those who were willing to subs me everytime i skipped my work.. hahahhaa thanx a lot guys!!!!!! it was my first time working as a part timer in my life, and it has gotten me unforgettable experience!! how to deal with many characters of customers*well, i'm kinda jerk in this*, how to keep our moods good!?*well, i failed as well :-) *, how to get along with workmates *hhhmmm ,not bad* and many other things!!!! been 10 months and i feel grateful that i can through that heehhehehhe....i met many kinds of people and it gets me avenues to know and understand each character.... but the coolest thing of all is that i can operate the espresso machine esp. the semi automatic ones hehhehheh.... new skill on me!! well, it was really new and unfamiliar for me as i saw it first time but then right after my success in making my first cappucinno, whoaaa wanna try it for more hehehheheh...sometimes it's kinda lucky to get a nice foam, but i've found the art of it, so it's no longer difficult for me.. heehhe... but im always wondering how to make espresso with the automatic ones...man, i wish i had my own machine hheehhehe...

2007-04-26T09:10:00.000+07:00

just run from my first class this morning and heading to the second class which i bet will be definitely and positively boring!!!!!!! the teacher always tell history which i dont think has any relations with the actual and contemporary subjects!! sucks!! well, im not the one reckons it this way, the whole class think the same!!! i wonder why is it us, the students who always follow the rule and just agree with the mechanism of the class or else with the way the teacher teach? yea right i might just being sceptical here.... but in my opinion, some senior teachers are trying to dominate in class.... well some are not... but just let's focus on some who does.....
every single week we spent onthis class, i never saw any entusiasm came out of my classmates' face... we always do something else on the class instead of listening hhahahaa.... once i joined one of classmates who sat beside me reading newspapers.. haaha,, yes we made a bit noise but it seemed that the teacher was totally preoccupied with wat he's doing: TALKING , then he other kids saw us and asked us to hand him and her the other page of the paper hahhaha..... well, on another occasion last week...i color my fingernails with a color pen hehhehehe...... while the other kids are chatting via bookpaper which was wrapped as compact as possible and they did the dialogue instead of listening to the teacher hhahahha.......another crazy thing was done by a friend who sat in the front row!!!!! he slept!!!!!!! tightly!!!!! with the head bent down,,, he looked like dead anyway hahahaa......... ok then, time to go to that class!!!!! actually the reason i went to the class and try not to get absent is that the teacher is soo procedural... and the students' attendance will affect the final score, damn.... now i better run off!!!!

FRENCH...

2007-04-25T11:14:00.000+07:00

french fries.....yummy
french kiss......yummy too (hhahhahah)
french movie...... wat i like most....

yea... i always feel like to watch french movie, e.g : asterix, spanish apartment, russian dolls, amelie, love me if u dare, a very long engagement, anthony zimmer, he loves me he loves me not, etc

really excited to see AUDREY TAUTOU on the screen!!!! she's an incredible actress, she had played many characters and all looked so naturally on her!!

2007-04-25T10:52:00.000+07:00

i am officially 21!!!!!!!! hehehehe welcome to the real world, run!!!

hhahahahaahahaa

2007-04-24T11:21:00.000+07:00

Princess image for girls debated

NEW YORK, April 23 (UPI) --

The Cinderella phenomenon has been around for decades and UCLA child psychologist Dr. Mark DeAntonio said he thinks it's healthy.

"I think it's normal for kids to kind of fanaticize roles, to try them on for size," said DeAntonio. "And both boys and girls do this, and it's a very normal thing."

But some mothers are worried their daughters' self-esteem may be hurt by the plethora of princess products in stores, ABC News reported Monday.

"When you have 25,000 items beaming at your daughter every day, it stops being really a choice," said author Peggy Orenstein, who writes about women's issues.

She questions the affect of the perfect-looking princesses as role models for girls.

"It really is ultimately about looking pretty, and having a lot of stuff," she said. "And as somebody who studied body image, I really worry about what it's setting girls up for. Will the girl who is wearing 'Princess' across her chest when she's three be wearing 'Spoiled' across her chest when she's six, and 'Porn Star' when she is 12?"

Disney, which helped to popularize the trend, made $3 billion on the princess image last year.

by bravenet: on the sidebar of my blog

poor birthday girl

2007-04-24T10:13:00.000+07:00

whoaaaa im broke in my upcoming birthday, TOMORROW!!!!!
wonder how it feels to be broke on ur 21st birthday? SUCKS!!!!!!dat's it hehhehee well, all i can do is to thank god that i'm still alive at the moment haahhahaa 21 years old resolution : do better treasury management!!!!!!!!!!mean it rani!!

hands up!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-24T08:40:00.000+07:00

still refresh in our mind the murder in virginia tech..yesterday i read that it stimulates other american citizens to own their own gun or other kinda weapon. it is aimed to protect him/herself and the family.. the weapon selling rate has raised significantly by last week, yeah wat do we call this then? a culture!! now it has been a culture, to own a hand gun, well, i wish i had one too so i can just point it out to a pervert who tries to mess with me on the street hahhahhahahh....(just like i had yesterday!!!! it sucks!! screw em)
it's a prominence for weapon or military industry, they would dig benefits which are fortune!!!lucky them!! also they contribute great amount of income tax to the country by selling their stuff abroad. so it makes civilian independent of any military intervention in sustaining the security of whole nation. do american still need a military personnel then? yea of course they do in order to get themselves focused overseas, instead of their own countries. they play a role in other countries regarded as a threat to america... ha, still securitization!! seems like we wont find heaven in america hahahaha now it is no longer the monopoly of military to weapon usage, civilians are able to protect themselves, civil used to have a full control over military, it claims the professionalism of military. since there has been easy access to weaponry, i bet civilian has either easened or lightened one of the duties of military which is to protect domestic security. but hey, does having our own handgun means we are explicitly secured? i dont think so, rather it comes out of our insecurity feelings and being threatened all the time. as in security study it's called a threat to our existence. we make up things that we feel as threatening our existence, well maybe to some others, it is not a threat at all. contrary to japan which strengthening its strict policy in access to weapon after last assasination of its mayor. infact japan is a country with high number of gangs-yakuza-. also it has lots of stressed people commiting suicide per year!!.. maybe it tried to hamper deaths because the population is really going down by years, poor them anyway both countries are feeling insecured and seems like the problem solving is to harm self.
the world is never gonnabe safe as long as we keep feeling insecure and never enough of wat we have, why dont just let others do wat they feel rights and we have fun with ourselves rather than stressing out with other's stuffs. life is too short, but still i wish i had a handgun in my pocket hahahaa

2007-03-22T10:39:00.000+07:00

The man with the flared messy hair called Nasirun. He is a famous painter in Indonesia, esp. Jogja. He’s got 10 houses in Jogja. I was in one of em with a Japanese friend to do an interview about a painting art last year. A man next to Nasirun is a curator. The house is huge and it’s got art works in every part of it. We were really surprised to know that he’s got another 9!!!!! He’s been around in many countries as well to do the exhibition. As we asked them how come he has many houses like that, he said it was the result of selling painting works. WOW!!! His paintings belong to the surrealism with traditional Javanese sense, i.e wayang. Most of em were painted in very big size. There are other well known artists in Jogja it self. As we know the image of an artist is like a bohemian , carefree, and perhaps away from establishment and wealthiness. Well, it was a first thought come up in my mind as I saw Nasirun and other artists. They keep being modest so far anyway. I think wat Nasirun does to provide himself and the family is a good way. All he has to do is just to express wat’s on his mind in painting or other artworks. He doesn’t have to deal with a legal employment contract shit, or any complicated works. Nor he has to keep waiting for ,say, a month or a week just to get paid. It’s koooollll…….i call it as a pure way to get money. By selling stuffs. In this case, paintings. All he’s got is a wild mind and an originality. It’s a “safe” kinda job!! Compared to those small brains pervert who did corruption to provide their own big belly!!! Nevertheless, this phenomenon of painting artists get themselves rich is quite controversial. the inspiration, motives, and all those abstract things are become questioned. Do they paint for money or is it because of a sole art feeling they got in their mind and heart. To speak in a reality, who does ever care of it though? Who does ever care of the money are gonna spend to? Who does ever care of one’s feeling and thought about artworks?no one could guess of any other people thought. Maybe the artist deserves it. The money they got for the enjoyment and excitement they create towards other people’s feeling. Afterall, the buyer gives their money voluntarily aight, without any force to do it.

2007-03-16T12:09:00.000+07:00

a girl besides me is "chiku", a class mate of mine. she used to organize the literature sharing from the teacher to the students.... she's a good girl... the picture took place on the International Human Rights Expert Meeting where i was one of the committees. in that event i got more realised that we dont live alone in this world, there are many more people with special character that we wouldnt understand until we get along and to know them as a social human being....

launch!!!!!!

2007-03-15T08:53:00.000+07:00

day fourth of the week but it feels like just yesterday was monday!!! been busy with tons of homeworks and parttime works!!!!!i'm 20 years old , people said it's a productive age. well i regard so.. at first i was afraid of leaving my teen age, teens was hell lot of FUN !!!!!!! until one day of the upcoming days to my 20 i had this contemplation bout my self in the past and future. i was reminded of bad things ive done. felt silly afterwards and laughing at my self. i got realised that it's a step to make a change, go forward, and just grow up. according to a westerner friend, people there are considered mature on the age of 21. someone has to get outta their parents' house and find their own living place. he/she then is to be fully responsible to him/herself. on the article i read in a woman mag, it said that 20 is a proper age to start saving money for the future investment in order to maintain our treasury. i started to work as a temps(parttimer) in my 20 but i used to spend the salary right away after i got it. Childish way!!! i was meant to please my self. was so lavish hehehehehe i feel sory for myself neways.
ya i know it's a productive age but it also a moment for us to choose what's right. like wat to be and to do in future, i believe everything which are good organized are worth much. it means good planning. but the most important thing is to do the planning. nevertheless it is also the hardest thing hahhahhahaa..... temptations are endless, esp. our moods. i wish we could set moods just like a remote controller hhaahhaha.... just like in a "clicked" movie. i wonder how the military personnel could just stay steady all the time. they'd just do wat has to do without any complaining to the commander. they have a strategic planning and are always ready to execute it anytime. their goal is to winning the war. how could they be so focused in that. dammit man really wonder!!! yea it's just the matter of discipline, they have been indoctrinated by a spirit of corps. to be the best. maybe that's wat the "bad mooders" should do... look back to what our goal was. to see how we could've gone this far. never stop!!!!!!!!

pics of a class presentation

2007-03-15T08:22:00.000+07:00

here are wat i promised on previous post bout presentation....pics of my classmates doing presentation

another funeral :-]

2007-03-09T10:39:00.000+07:00

wwhhhooooaaa my bike almost hit a car at the crossroads on my way to uni!!! luckily i'm safe.... stupid me!!!! was tryin to be punctual at my first class this morning. as i got there, a classmate told me the class is off. our teacher who supposed to teach in my class is in the mourning times. her brother was found dead in that flamed aircraft. remember my last story? yea, he's a vice dean of the faculty of economy in our uni. he's also an uncle of a classmate. so yea, i just figured out lately that one of my classmates is a son of our teacher. my deep condolences for them, the family. some students along with teachers came to the ceremony. this time it was held in an old Masjid in a royal palace area. called "masjid gede kauman". it still got a traditional touch and i found it nice....was my first time there and i just like to visit traditional heritage hehehehe... aight back to the ceremony... i bet this man is an important person in a moslem organisation which based in here. it's called Muhammadiyah. it is very deep rooted in the civil society of Jogja anyway. too bad me and friends didnt get cameras to take picture with.
it was so crowded. i could feel the sense of unity and solidarity over there.
finally a question has answered. i said there were 3 UGM's teacher became victims in the accident. the rest of two had been found, only one survived. he's a teacher of a faculty where i study at. he's got wounded,but safe. wat a luck......in the mean time, i'll have another class at 1 pm, and apparently i'm too lazy to go back home, so here i am stay at uni hehehe. so sad that the uni had lost some of its best men. a good generation is slowly disappearing. i admit it that teachers play a great role in my life and maybe so is everybody. i would never be like this if i had not known my teacher since i was a little child. i really really appreciate wat they had done to me. taught me to read and write. i feel sorry for those who liked to make fun of teachers behind their back. screw the stupidity those people have. they are obviously nothing without teachers. the lesson that i got from these 2 long days are that those teachers abdicated most of their life for the people. real people. even though they got a big name, they're not careless of wat's going on around them. as example: a professor whose funeral is yesterday had proposed to establish a university in a suburb area "Gunung Kidul". he suggest our uni to look around instead of enrich itself hehhehhe. just compare to the bastards in the stupid government. all they care is how to get their payment raised. it's not democracy. it's democrashit. by the way, it's getting hotter here, SUNNY!! i'll go buy an ice cream right away then hehhehhe nyamzz nyamzz

rain in a sunny sky

2007-03-09T07:51:00.000+07:00

(this is supposed to be posted yesterday, but there was some technical error in the internet connection!!!!!!!!!)

It was my first time attending a funeral ceremony of a professor in the university. He was a great professor with a long history in academic and social field. He’s got bunch of achievement. It was a long list of CV!!! No wonder many people from different background had come to give him a last regard . There was a military ceremony as well, regarding at his young age he abdicated some part of his life in a military service before he turned into academic realm. He died in a plane crash yesterday morning at a local airport. The plane was burnt in flame and had a little explosion. Wat a disaster!!!! It must took the favor of a miracle to survive yea ….whooaaaa… one thing I couldn’t forget about this funeral ceremony is the atmosphere around the place. It took place at the uni’s large backyard which surrounded by huge trees and it was so green. As the ceremony held, some storks--or perhaps crows, coz it looks more to it!! well, some black and white birds----- emerged out of their nest at the top of the trees. It was soooo kooollll!!!!!!!! Nice view, beautiful sky!!!!!!!!….. peaceful like in a movie hhehehheheh plus a cloudy sky….. huhuhuuuu sad but nice btw there were 2 other teachers whose existence are still not clear. Well, some victim were unidentified yet. wat a horrible accident (da!!)

Aight back to the above circumstance admiration of mine, by the way I believe we’ve all through some bad times. I also believe that it wasn’t only me who had a bit of good time in the midst of the bad. This “little” good time at least did pull our smile out yea… it would be exciting if we are able to find those ‘slipped’ good times in our bad times. We’d feel relieve , trust me!!!! Well, the problem is HOW!! How to find the little excitement in our bad moods..??aight now let me uncover my way: see around and get one thing as an object of our subsequent imagination. Imagine funny things that could happen to that object. i.e : say u had waited for a friend who’s not being on time on an appointment, at the mean time, u’ve been sitting there for such a bloody hours, and suddenly ur friend comes up lightly like nothing had happened. Say, he holds a mineral water in hand, just imagine he’d opened up the seal and drench himself with that water and he’d look a total idiot in a wet clothes ;p ….well, hopefully it’ll take over ur rage and u’ll turn normal again hehehhehheh

plain presentation is out!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-07T11:06:00.000+07:00

All this time a presentation mostly done in a plain way,some man sit in front of us or just standstill and speech. Well, in one of my classes, a peculiar way of doing it done by my classmates,a role play and I will too as my turn comes hehheheh. It was the teacher’s decision to make our class more fun and exhilarating . too bad I haven’t accessed pictures of them doin presentation, but I will upload em as soon as possible. The topic in the presentation was about the securitizing act done in global environment. As we can see in Al-Gore’s( former US president’s candidate) film , “an inconvenient truth” which achieved an Oscar award by last week, he tried to make an environment issue matters in everybody’s mind. That our planet is in harm coz of global warming ,bla bla bla. One of the man in the presentation group acted as Al-Gore and it was successfully amusing the audiences. While the other man played as a presenter in one famous talkshow in Indonesia, and he made a parody of it hehehhehhe. The famous talkshow is called “kick Andy” and his was “kick me now” lol. As the background they played a snap screen of “an inconvenient truth”. They featured our teacher to play as an expert of the phenomenon. Al-Gore actor also did a speech representing Al-Gore’s actual speech in Oscar. Finally the rest of the class was also participating in question and answer about Al-Gore’s action and his hidden agenda in doing such campaign. We tried to conclude whether it was a politization or securitization of environment issue, and I supposed the presentation worked!!!!! Wat a brilliant idea u got there mate!!! Hahahhhha….it was a different presentation which combining an entertainment and academic analysis. It didn’t strain our mind. It’s a good way of studying. The teacher in this class was one of my favorites anyway. In our former class, he initiated the class to do a ‘learning cell’ in every meeting. It encouraged us to read the nite before and to speak our mind in the discussion the next morning. We were asked to write a resume of wat we had read and to make at least three questions to ask in class. The class were divided into some small groups, and the discussion happened in the group. We were given about 30 mins to discuss our questions and tried to answer them in the group. After the time up, then all questions came unanswered were proposed in class, and the teacher encouraged other group to answer with him to complete the answers. Damn man, it was effective. Long before the semester is done, we have finished reading the whole book and get understood ( I supposed). Wat a good teaching method. The class is not ruled solely by the teacher but us, the students. That’s wat democracy is all about.

critics? do i care?

2007-03-05T17:00:00.000+07:00

ive had enough of it!!!!!!!!!ive changed my self in regard of those critics the same people had thrown for fuckin period of time!!!! ex: to be on time!!! last month was my best record in being ontime, and that u dont or never realize it, that's yer problem dudes... now here comes another demand which i wont take it deeply this time!!!! i'll give no shit any longer.... i would just mind it if it comes from the credible kinda person, not some personal feeling minded ones.... i was just tried to be professional, not more.... and i'll through this until the end, u'll see i'll survive!!!!!!!! i'm proud, not gay

saturday nite for 'single but not looking'

2007-03-03T15:44:00.000+07:00

finally i get to see babel.... hhehehhehee,,,, but i like "little miss sunshine" better hhehehheee.... karena sampe sekarang aku gatau apa maksudnya rinko kikuchi menelanjangkan diri hehehheehheehh..yeaaa sedikit banyak film itu nunjukkin bagaimana ribetnya birokrasi dan politisasi pemerintah .... whoaaa parah banget ada orang lagi sekarat butuh ambulans malah disuruh nungguin hasil negosiasi antar pemerintah... chaOS!! menurutku scene yang keren yaitu waktu baby sitternya berurusan sama polisi di perbatasan.....pada saat keponakannya terprovokasi untuk melarikan diri dari petugas di perbatasan hhahhahaa.... keren banget antara panik dan bingung mau ngapain akhirnya dia milih lari whhhooaaa...good for him, disaster for the aunt....kadang2 aku juga memilih lari ketika dihadapkan pada sesuatu yang seperti itu, run and take the time for myself..... malam minggu ini kuawali dengan tidur2an sampe sore and now here i am di sebuah tempat makan yang kadang2 pelayannya memandang dengan penuh intimidasi seolah2 berkata" order something u bitch!!" haahahhahahaahh, akhirnya aku pesan makanan yg paling murah dan crappy banget....corned beef ,,,eeeuuwwhh disgusting, i ate only a half of it though hahhahhha..... tapi setidaknya itu bisa membungkam mereka.... tadinya cuman niat berteduh dari hujan, tapi telor dadarnya enak juga hehehehheh....pokoknya hari ini mau menyenangkan diri sendiri.... seperti yang biasanya kulakukan pada hari sabtu, makan makanan enak, make personal compliment account di tempat kerja aka minum gratis hheeehhhehh dan nyewa film bagus sampe akhirnya membiarkan diriku terlelap sampai pagi hehhheehhehe...........oh ya baru inget tadi pagi ada undangan makan2 dan minum2 dari temen yang baru balik dari luar whhooaaaa now im thinking of going hehehee siapa tau makanannya lumayan yeaahh itung2 juga ketemu sama temen2 lama... hope it's gonnabe fun, coz i really dont waste "my time" feeling mourned in a crowd hehhehehehee

mobil unik affandi

2007-03-02T11:50:00.000+07:00

this car belongs to Affandi, once a well known painting artist of Indonesia... u know wat, as u see in the picture that the car isnt just plain but colorful.. Affandi did all those color onto it himself!!!! i figured it out last year as i went to Affandi's museum--which is huge-- with izumi, my japanese friend, and one of my classmates, we met a son of his and he told us all stories bout his father. this car's brand is Mitsubishi, and once the mitsubishi staffs come to Affandi's house and tried to offer him the latest version of their brand plus some other material in compensation to this colorful car. unexpectedly, Affandi refused it and decided to keep this car hhehehhehe, it's one of the most unique car ive seen, in my life... oh ya u should see also his house, where he parked it at..... the roof is resembling the banana leaf, and it's awesome!!!!!it's got artworks in every corner of it... he designed it himself as well, WITHOUT SKETCHES!!!!!, he just have to tell the brickman whooaaaa koollll .. so if u go to jogja, dont miss this museum which was former house of Affandi. u'll start to appreciate artwork i'm sure hehehhehehehh

I'm BACKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-28T11:37:00.000+07:00

WHOAAAA, IVE GOT SICK!!!!!!! THAT DAMN TYPHOID SYMPTOMS!!alias, gejala typhus.... gilaa... aku kena juga,, kejadiannya siang itu eh pagi ding, waktu di kelas aku kedinginan banget brrr... aku bahkan pake sarung tangan flanelku , gatau kenapa sejak kuliah AC di kelas ga pernah sedingin itu tapi yg waktu itu kerasa dingin luarbiasa. mana hari itu mendung banget!!!!!!! whooaa i like sun better than rain when it comes to sick man like me( what, me? man? i truly am a woman!! hehhehehhe yeah watever), begitu selesai kuliah aku langsung pulang dan mengunci diri di kamar , tapi ga bisa tidur karena dingiiin, i was frozen... begitu aku bangun aku liat nyala lampu di kamarku kok lebih gelap dari biasanya, dont know why, warnanya kekuningan gitu... aku udah kaya orang gila aja, mataku merah, rambutku berantakan, jalan sendirian di kosan ...malamnya aku diperiksain ke dokter dan whhooaaa kaget.. suhuku udah mencapai 39 derajat celcius.. lemes banget, untung bukan demam berdarah tapi gejala typhus dan aku harus minum obat yang sekali telan bisa lebih dari 2!!! damn.. tapi mau gimana lagi... tapi sekarang aku udah sembuh hehhehhehe dan akan kembali ke kehidupan yang menyenangkan...... nyala lampu di kamarku udah kembali putih terang whhooaaaa.... tapi gaenaknya sekarang aku ga boleh makan makanan pedas,.,,, padahal sambal is my favorite food.. dulu aku setiap hari makan pasti pedes pake sambel....tapi kemaren aku udah nekat sekali ding, makan soto pake sambel dikit bgt!!!! sekarang lidah terasa pahit tanpa sambel,,, sniff sniff !!!! sambel i'll be missing u always..........

2007-02-21T18:39:00.000+07:00

Beberapa hari lalu sempat liat berita di suatu majalah tentang Jim Carrey yang menyarankan agar kita jangan keseringan ke minum kopi dan makan2an manis karena nantinya kita sendiri yang bakal nyesel akan akibat dari kopi dan makanan2 itu. DA!!! Dia bilang sehari bisa habis 6-7 gelas kopi dan sekarang dia menghentikan kebiasaannya itu karena badannya udah mulai rusak... hahhahahha aku yang kerja di coffeeshop merasa pernyataan itu konyol dan agak absurd.. tentang makan2an manis sepertinya kita semua udah tau baik buruknya, tapi kopi.. bentar dulu... kalo yang dimasalahin itu kadar kafein yang tinggi kan bisa di decaf..(kepanjangannya decafein)alias kadar cafeinnya dikurangin dan coffeeshop yang baik pasti punya menu itu... kurang kerjaan aja tu orang bikin pasaran coffeeshop turun!!!!*rage* :P salah sendiri maruk, minum kopi sampe 7 kali sehari whooaaa ngalahin makan obat aja hehehhehehhh tapi mengingat asas demokrasi yang salah satunya adalah kebebasan berpendapat, berkumpul, dan berorganisasi*cieehh* (gila loncatnya jauh banget :-p) jadi dia sah2 aja ngomong gitu hehhhehe....tapi ngomong2 soal kopi, mungkin juga bikin addicted ya.. dulu aja sebelum kerja di kedaikopiespressobar aku sama sekali jarang nyentuh kopi apalagi minum hehehehhe,,, sekarang uuuhhhh.... my favorite ones are viennese style cappucinno dan espresso doppio... yang doppio ini menurut pengalamanku bisa bikin terjaga sampe pagi walaupun udah seharian cape banget tapi pas menenggak 30ml espresso itu whhooaaa langsung melek... gilaa,, gatau itu sugesti atau beneran tapi yang pasti enak banget buat belajar waktu ujian hehhehhehehhh( wat a promotion:-p) sebenernya kafein sendiri ga cuman ada di kopi kok, percaya atau enggak, di coklat pun ada kafeinnya, bahkan kandungannya juga banyak.. see!! coffee is fine , kecuali buat yang punya sakit maag jangan kebanyakan minumnya hehhehheheh

2007-02-21T18:09:00.000+07:00

Love my raincoat!!!!!yeaaa… selalu menyelamatkanku dari derasnya hujan. Inilah sedikit deskripsi jas hujanku yang merupakan pemberian dari salah satu sahabatku yang udah pergi, xeron the baby toes :-p : warnanya biru, 2 pieces, atasannya seperti hooded jacket dan bawahannya celana panjang… gilaaa I feel safe whenever I’m out with it in my bag….bahkan I feel safer than with a real human being besides me!!! Aneh memang tapi beneran, pas make jas hujan itu rasanya enaakk banget!!!!!!walaupun hujan sederas apa juga.. kayanya jas hujanku itu bisa jadi teman yang baik dalam kesusahan. Sekarang ga banyak kan orang yang mau nemenin kita naik motor di bawah hujan yang sangat deras...heheeheh... apa aku yang udah gila ya, menjadikan benda mati sebagai objek pertemanan. Whhoaaaa.... tapi aku udah terlanjur sayang banget sama jas hujanku, dan aku percaya jas hujanku itu bisa jadi teman yang baik hheehheheh. Sebenarnya jas hujan ini bukan yang pertama aku punya, sebelumnya udah ada 3 atau 2 yang bentuknya juga lebih konvensional alias one piece dan kurang efektif mencegah air masuk, mereka juga raib gitu aja aku lupa karena apa, mungkin ketinggalan di tempat temen atau di curi orang kali ya hehhehhe,, tapi aku udah ikhlas..heheheheh sekarang ini aku udah nemuin yang terbaik dan yang akan aku rawat dan aku jaga seperti dia menjagaku.. hehehheh aku udah gila? Biarin hehhehe

2007-02-20T19:14:00.000+07:00

Whoaaaa ternyata headline newsku yang bisa dilihat di sidebar blog ini boleh juga!!! Beritanya update banget dan keluarnya duluan, ngalahin salah satu media cetak harian paling terkemuka di Indonesia. Beritanya tentang kembali menguatnya Al-Qaeda geeee!!, salut-salut. berita itu 2 hari yang lalu sementara di Koran tersebut baru terbit hari ini. Sepertinya semakin banyak saja gerakan anti Amerika yang berani menonjolkan dirinya. Selain Al-Qaeda, Garda Revolusi Iran juga terang2an melakukan latihan perang. Usaha diplomasi sepertinya bakal sia-sia mendamaikan pihak2yang bertikai. Wah-wah gila cermin dunia sekarang ini. Bukannya semakin damai, tenang, sejahtera, kita malah mengalami reversi seperti masa-masa silam. Ingat saja perang dunia I dan II. Mungkinkah sebentar lagi kita bakal mengalami perang dunia ke 3? Bedanya: 1). kalau dulu perang antara Sekutu yang dipimpin Amerika lawan Jerman sekarang aliansi Amerika lawan negara-negara timur tengah.(bertahap, satu persatu, sudah dimulai dari Irak, sekarang Amerika bertikai dengan Iran dan Suriah). 2). Dulu Amerika bertindak sebagai polisi dunia, sekarang Amerika yang membuat masalah dan menyelesaikan sendiri alias mengajak perang. Alasannya pun macam-macam, hanya berawal dari sebuah kecurigaan yang belum jelas kebenarannya (bahkan cenderung salah!!) sepertinya para eksekutif disana tidak akan bisa tidur tenang sebelum potensi ancamannya musnah. Kemajuan teknologi dimanfaatkan untuk memperkuat arsenal masing-masing negara bukannya untuk kesejahteraan rakyat. Mengingat kemampuan senjata nuklir yang dapat memusnahkan sebagian isi dunia. Peradaban sebagai bumerang. Ada apa dengan orang-orang ini. Mengapa mereka cenderung memilih perang sebagai jalan keluar? Apa semua orang udah kena sindrom sadomasochistic? Senang dan bergairah melihat orang lain kesakitan? Hahahaha wah parah tuh, kasihan juga orang yang masih normal,lama-lama mereka bisa ikut ”ketularan”. Kemungkinan lain, sudah tidak ada lagi rasa percaya sesama manusia di dunia ini. Kepercayaan hanya digunakan sebagai kedok dan alat pemenuhan kepentingan satu sama lain. Kemungkinan untuk ingkar janji selalu ada apalagi setelah salah satu pihak berhasil mendapat apa yang dia inginkan. Memang dasar sifat asli manusia. Kepercayaan sifatnya tidak permanen. Lihat aja Israel yang berkali-kali mengingkari perjanjian yang telah dia buat sendiri. Trust is bullshit then. Tapi kita tidak bisa memutar balik waktu. Kita hanya bisa bertahan dengan keyakinan terhadap diri sendiri seperti yang dilakukan pihak-pihak yang berperang. Survival of the fittest.

2007-02-19T15:17:00.000+07:00

Hope this would get us laugh or at least smile, even worse grin heheheheh

Taken from a big poster in my room, which once was given by my teacher hhhehheheh:

SHIT HAPPENS!!!!!

Taoism : “ if u understand shit, it isn’t shit”
Hinduism : “ this shit happened before”
Confucianism : “ Confucius say ‘shit happens’”
Buddhism : “ shit will happen to u again”
Zen : “ what is the sound of shit happening?”
islam : “if shit happens it is the will of Allah”
Sikhism : “leave our shit alone”
jehova’s witness: “knock knock. Shit happens”

9. atheism : “ I don’t believe this shit”

10. agnosticism : “ can u prove that shit happens?”

11. Catholicism: “if shit happens, u deserve it”

12. Protestantism : “ shit happens, amen to that”

13. Judaism : “why does shit always happen to us”

14. orthodox Judaism : “ so shit happens, already”

15. televangelism : “ send money or shit will happen to u”

16. Rastafarianism : “ let’s smoke this shit”

17. hare khrisna : “ shit happens rama rama”

18. nation of islam : “don’t take no shit”

19. new age : “visualize shit happening”

20. shintoism : “u inherit the shit of ur ancestors”

21. hedonism : “I love it when shit happens”

22. Satanism : “sneppah tihs”

23. capitalism : “ this is MY shit”

24. feminism : “ men are shit”

25. existentialism : “what is shit, anyway?”

26. scientology : “if shit happens, see Dianetics p.137”

27. Mormonism : “excrement happens” (don’t say shit)

28. baptism : “ we’ll wash the shit right off u”

29. mysticism: “this is really weird shit”

30. voodoo: “shit doesn’t just happen- we made it happen”

31. disneyism: “bad shit doesn’t happen here”

32. wicca: “u can make shit happen but shit will happen to u three times”

33. communism: “let’s share the shit”

34. Marxism: “u have nothing to lose but ur shit”

35. conspiracy theorism: “ THEY shit on us!”

36. psycho analysis: “tell me about ur shit”

37. Darwinism: “survival of the shittiest”

38. amish: “modern shit is useless”

39. suicidal: “I’ve had enough of this shit”

40. optimism: “shit won’t happen to me”

41. trekism: “ to boldly shit where no-one has shit before”

42. Shakespearean: “to shit or not to shit, that is the question”

43. Descartes: “I shit therefore I am”

44. freud: “shit is a phallic symbol”

45. lawyers: “for enough money, I can get u out of shit”

46. acupuncturist: “hold still or this will hurt like shit”

47. dog: “I just shit in ur shoe”

48. cat: “dogs are shit”

49. mouse: “oh shit!!a cat!!”

50. politically correct: “internally processed, nutritionally-drained biological output happens”

51. Einstein: “shit is relative”

52. family gathering: “relatives are shit”

53. materialism: “whoever dies with the most shit, wins”

54. vegetarianism: “if it happens to shit, don’t eat it”

55. fatalism: “oh shit, it’s going to happen”

56. environmentalism : “shit is biodegradable”

57. Americanism: “ who gives a shit?”

58. statistician: “shit is 84,7% likely to happen”

59. hip-hop: “motherfuck this shiznit, beeatch!!”

60. tantrism: “fuck this shit”

61. cynicism: “we are full of shit”

62. surrealism: “fish happens”

by : pyramid posters,uk :-)

2007-02-18T21:06:00.000+07:00

i'm at work now and it rains outside.... ate a lot today, just had a bloody blackforest hhehhehehe nyamzzznyamzzz was from the birthcake of my barista captain, 'peppy', happy 22nd birthday yaa pep hhehehhe, semoga tambah akomodatif sama barista2mu yang manis ini hahhahhahhahh..... wat a blind salary we got tonite hhehehehe, since it rained. luckily i and laila didnt get drenched whoaaaa... there was typhoon happened in jogja,,, bbbrrrr... a friend said some trees fell down, well i saw one my self though, few months ago, a great one, i was in an ancient building of Dutch, called Vredeburg Fort, the rain was damn hard people heard some noise upon our heads whoaaa it was a heavy winds, everything we saw were all blur, we tried to look down to the road and i could see a fallen big tree. it blocked the way, midst the road.. caused sort of traffic jam as it finished.....whoaaa nature!!! U RULE!!!! HHEHEHHEH, i just give my self up to u then :-)

hang out!!!!! yea i got hung noww....

2007-02-16T23:17:00.000+07:00

laila!!! aku mampir ke warnet deket kosan heheehe coz apparently im not enough getting online in kedai!!!!!!!! hehhehehhe, yea, i spent the whole day with her after such awhile not seeing each other :-) i had fun and now, exhausted!! hehehehhe... gotta grab my bed soon!!!!!!!!!jump to it!!!!! really missing my messy and cracked down room!!!!!! hopefully there will be new resident next door soon....this damn stillness and fucking silence try to kill me softly!!!well, yea there were 2 prospective ones today surveying around and got stranded at my boardhouse hehhehehehe and the "material girl"(me and my former roommate used to call the house sitter with :-]) asked me to be an interpreter in that sudden negotiation hehhehehhe.. they were 2 german girls and i found it as another good chance to
practise my deutsch hahhaahaha not surprisingly, the material girl cost em way more more fuckin expensive than us the locals.. wat a bloody discrimination!!!!!! well it happened before though, my former roommate who is an australian was one victim(miss ya xeron)...i wonder why we,the locals,used to think that foreigner esp. westerner,are MORE than ourselves..more in every way, e.g more handsome and beautiful, more money, and sometimes more annoying hahahhahahah what an inlander way of thinking... i feel sorry for those who are and for my self sometimes.. i believe it's all started on the appearances.. they might look "cleaner" than us , the locals, so what then? who knows wat's inside, they could just be filthier too aight hehhehhee... according to my experiences ive had in dealing with some foreigners, i figure that basically, they're just the same as us.. they would complaining about something which we would consider as a piece of shit, unnecessary!!we did it too sometimes, complaining, lying, and other negative shit! sometimes they are broke, and so are we!! but yea, that's human aight, not perfect. before judging and stereotyping someone which later followed in treating ,why dont we just think of it this way==) posit our selves as him/her when treated such ways we treated him/her in our actual position . feel it!!!! ps: perhaps it would be different and might be good if u have a special ability to just neglect and get over all bad feelings right away and not easily distracted or bent down as someone treat u inhumanely!!!!!!!!!

violence

2007-02-16T16:25:00.000+07:00

"Vengeance is all mine, I will repay," by Leo Tolstoy

hey, been watched "clockwork orange"? it's one of my fav movie... i guess it's one way to turn violence actions into nonviolence ones by non violence means...well, actually i kinda doubt it that a brainwash belongs to the nonviolence means. that's my own thought anyway, perhaps i assume such a way in regard it doesnt involve a physical violence but psychological. in effect, it goes further than any physical abuse in punishing someone for what he/she has done. sir Alex was really feel regrets of those crime he and the gang did to other people. it gets him in a traumatic condition. the brainwash has turned his way of thinking around. maybe he should thank to the authority for giving him such a treatment that he would never forget for the rest of life yea hhahhaha..wat actually the intention of the authorities and some epistemic team( in this case, the psychologists, brainwashers)to conduct such method in punishing the criminals? why dont we take a bit flash back on wat hapen in Iraq's Abu Ghraib and US' Guantanamo prison. they were contrary to wat happened to sir Alex yea. there are at least 2 intentions of authority in "clockwork" that i can see, A). it was meant to develop a new method of turning someone with bad behavior into a better one, so when he's back to the society , he wont harm any other people nomore. briefly, he would turn tame :-p, controllable, and more stable. B).it was only for scientific purpose (research)without considering any further effect that a brainwash may result into for the interest of that man and people around. now i'll try to compare with wat may follows from the punishment method in those two prisons. Could be death of prisoners, or retaliation the prisoners would do to the authority related--or United States in general--incase they are fortuned to get freed from all indictments and get the opportunity to get out of there.. (yea i know it's a little chance for it to happen, but possibilities are endless, aight) or say, they would make it to get fleed!!!!!!! whoaaa, then they would just comeback to its group and building great forces to make a revenge which can harm laymen and innocents !!!!! yea wat bout it huh, uncool!!!now wat do u want, USA? to put your people in harm so their paranoia would just come true?? the authorities could’ve just thought of the method used in clockwork orange yea. however Terrorism arised from the discontent felt by those got an unfair distribution of needs and necessity which mostly happened in the so called third world countries. Hey, it gets me new idea. Wat if we turn this case back to the authority?? Hhaahahhah let’s brainwash em about the suffering they cause to the poor and developing countries . about those giant corporations dumping their shit to the poor countries, pollutions they caused, and whole lot more exploitations they did without any fair concessions to the labors. heheheheh

hujaannn!!!!!!!

2007-02-15T13:05:00.000+07:00

siang ini aku ada di salah satu franchise tempat kerjaku, "it's coffee" hehhehhe tadi buru2 kesini karena angin diluar gede banget!!! dan prediksiku bakal turun hujan yg ternyata benar hehehehh,,, i was alone with my notebook and i saved it too hehheheh
gilaa akhir2 ini di jogja padahal udah kembali panas, ternyata hujan masih mampir di kota gudeg tercinta ini heheheh....tapi untungnya disini ga separah ibukota indonesia yang kemaren2 sempat terendam air dan yang pemerintahnya sepertinya kalem2 aja pfiiiuuuhhh dasar sampah!!! lagi2 sampah jadi kambing hitam, ya iya sih bener juga sampah memegang peranan penting sebagai penyebab banjir itu, sampah disini maksudnya ada yang secara amelioratif dan peyoratif heheheh.. ada sampah yang tidak kelihatan dan ada sampah yang cuman jadi objek benda mati.pertama, sampah yang tidak kelihatan yaitu janji2 pemerintah setempat dulu sewaktu kampanye dalam rangka memperebutkan kursi di pemerintahan daerah(pilkada). janji2 itu sempat dipercaya oleh masyarakat sebagai sebuah harapan baru demi membangun kota yang lebih baik dan lebih khususnya lagi mencegah bencana banjir yang lebih parah dari tahun sebelumnya. but at last, now we've seen those promises have become such a dump trashes!!! ga ada realisasinya..terbuang begitu saja ditelan angin, untungnya itu bukan sampah yang padat dan memiliki berat jenis karena bisa2 nambahin massa sampah beneran yang udah penuh di jakarta hhahahhah .yeah yeah i guess we've all been used to it yeh, kecewa :-p yang kedua sampah beneran yang dihasilkan dari konsumsi manusia sehari-hari whhhooaaa yang ini ga kalah parah...saking konsumtifnya orang2 disana sampai sampai tempat pembuangan sampah jadi penuh. mending kalo orang yang mengkonsumsi tersebut merelakan sebagian wilayah propertinya(komplek2 perumahan) sebagai tempat sampahnya sendiri, ini malah dibuang ke tempat yang justru jadi daerah aliran sungai, bantaran kali yang merupakan akses bagi air untuk sampai ke laut, parahnya lagi di daerah situ juga tinggal warga yang terpinggirkan(scr harfiah lho) baik itu pendatang atau orang asli, alhasil bibit2 penyakit pun juga beresiko nempel ga jauh2 dari mereka. wadouw, kasihan sekali kamu sampah, seharusnya kamu diperlakukan dengan layak sebagaimana kamu telah memuaskan nafsu pemilikmu sebelum akhirnya kamu menjadi sampah . di daur ulang kek, dipisah2in antara yang organik dan ga organik atau diapain kek yang sekiranya bisa menambah nilai guna. maafkan kami ya sampah.......