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Friday, November 7, 2008



I was soo extremely weak yesterday I couldn’t think, couldn’t eat, couldn’t walk as fast as I used to every day, even my digestion rejected anything I swallowed.. I was like brainless person.. The doctor said my blood pressure is dropped to 99/60 or something (hell with it) and I had to eat lots of veggies and work out more often while my dad said I supposed to eat lamb to raise my blood pressure.. But I was too weak to reach them all… I just had medicines….. then today I found a way to raise my blood pressure…. :

An article I just found on google:

We all know what anger is, and we've all felt it: whether as a fleeting annoyance or as full-fledged rage.
Anger is a completely normal, usually healthy, human emotion. But when it gets out of control and turns destructive, it can lead to problems—problems at work, in your personal relationships, and in the overall quality of your life. And it can make you feel as though you're at the mercy of an unpredictable and powerful emotion. This brochure is meant to help you understand and control anger.
What is Anger?
The Nature of Anger
Anger is "an emotional state that varies in intensity from mild irritation to intense fury and rage," according to Charles Spielberger, PhD, a psychologist who specializes in the study of anger. Like other emotions, it is accompanied by physiological and biological changes; when you get angry, your heart rate and blood pressure go up, as do the levels of your energy hormones, adrenaline, and noradrenalin.
Anger can be caused by both external and internal events. You could be angry at a specific person (Such as a coworker or supervisor) or event (a traffic jam, a canceled flight), or your anger could be caused by worrying or brooding about your personal problems. Memories of traumatic or enraging events can also trigger angry feelings.
Expressing Anger
The instinctive, natural way to express anger is to respond aggressively. Anger is a natural, adaptive response to threats; it inspires powerful, often aggressive, feelings and behaviors, which allow us to fight and to defend ourselves when we are attacked. A certain amount of anger, therefore, is necessary to our survival.
On the other hand, we can't physically lash out at every person or object that irritates or annoys us; laws, social norms, and common sense place limits on how far our anger can take us.
People use a variety of both conscious and unconscious processes to deal with their angry feelings. The three main approaches are expressing, suppressing, and calming. Expressing your angry feelings in an assertive—not aggressive—manner is the healthiest way to express anger. To do this, you have to learn how to make clear what your needs are, and how to get them met, without hurting others. Being assertive doesn't mean being pushy or demanding; it means being respectful of yourself and others.
Anger can be suppressed, and then converted or redirected. This happens when you hold in your anger, stop thinking about it, and focus on something positive. The aim is to inhibit or suppress your anger and convert it into more constructive behavior. The danger in this type of response is that if it isn't allowed outward expression, your anger can turn inward—on yourself. Anger turned inward may cause hypertension, high blood pressure, or depression.
Unexpressed anger can create other problems. It can lead to pathological expressions of anger, such as passive-aggressive behavior (getting back at people indirectly, without telling them why, rather than confronting them head-on) or a personality that seems perpetually cynical and hostile. People who are constantly putting others down, criticizing everything, and making cynical comments haven't learned how to constructively express their anger. Not surprisingly, they aren't likely to have many successful relationships.
Finally, you can calm down inside. This means not just controlling your outward behavior, but also controlling your internal responses, taking steps to lower your heart rate, calm yourself down, and let the feelings subside.

Monday, October 13, 2008

free lulur ......yay


previously i got this lulur a.k.a body scrub for Rp17,000 from warda, a work mate but today i got it for free heheheh it was from another work mate.. she gave away this balinese lulur to every girl in the office hehehh she's a bali native and just got back from there, she said the lulur was only Rp7,000 each in bali!!!..other workmate told me someone at kemang festival sold it for rp30,000 each.. what a profit!!.. i dont know why this lulur is quite well known among girls.. but i proved it smells good.. ive had used the seaweed flavor..today i got the carrot.. but it still smells good.. and it really smoothened my skin!!!!!!! dammit they should pay me for this once again.. hahahhaha im not even a freelance marketer anyway.. now i have a plan to do on this weekend already which is six days ahead...heheeheh i'll pamper my self with the lulur and dvds...koolll.,... who doesnt look forward for day off *sigh.......

Monday, September 22, 2008

pressure........



just found my disgust-face pic on titan's blog heehehhehe.... what did i disgust about? it's natto... or more exactly natto sushi...yuck!! it's made of fermented soybean..literally fermented!!!!!!!! without any further process..in Indonesia it is similar to tempe but i think tempe is more civilized made...and i love tempe a lot......wat bout natto? it smells like shit!!!!!!!! by smelling it i wasnt interested to go further like eating it maybe...i way prefer sushi... and i like sushi alot but this kind, thanx...

i found closer look of freakin natto from wikipedia.. there u go..enjoy....



haahahahah i imagined eating natto is like being under pressure.. maybe for the first trial..well at least for me...
speaking of pressure,,,, i kinda have been experiencing and used to it recently...but of course i still need more strength to deal with it,,,,

under pressure by queen

Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure - that tears a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
Um ba ba be
Um ba ba be
De day da
Ee day da - that's o.k.
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher
Pressure on people - people on streets
Day day de mm hm
Da da da ba ba
O.k.
Chippin' around - kick my brains around the floor
These are the days it never rains but it pours
Ee do ba be
Ee da ba ba ba
Um bo bo
Be lap
People on streets - ee da de da de
People on streets - ee da de da de da de da
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher high high
Pressure on people - people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
but it's so slashed and torn
Why - why - why ?
Love love love love love
Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love give love give love give love
give love give love give love give love give love
'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And loves dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

Sunday, September 21, 2008

sunday work!!!

It’s Sunday and im at the office.. hhhhmm yeah I know it sucks but at least I’d get paid for it.. at the moment im just waiting for my other work mate to work together with me,… last nite I slept on the floor as it was freeeaaaakkiing hot I couldn’t stand.. ive got my fan on… and kept coughing during the sleep.. been 4 days of cough.. Yesterday I spent half day cleaning up my room.. and mopped the floor ---so finally I can sleep on it..heheeh… been three days of skipping fasting as I got my accident .. it’s not really different than when I fast coz.. many food stores are closed in daylight.. they’d open since at least 5 pm… the actual schedule of Sunday work starts around 12 or 1 pm but I was just bored at my room so here I am.. have downloaded five songs since 11 am hehehh.. it’s not bad.. as I am the only one using the internet at the moment.. the connection is just as good as a flash…
This is what I, emil, titan, risti and rifa did on Friday after hour..hehee.. we took picture of ourselves on a mirror reflection at the entrance of our office,….







Tuesday, September 2, 2008

people like u are the reason people like me need medication........



this movie is soo kool.. i like the way charlie raise money and helping his friends at the same time. though he eventually realized that selling drugs is wrong...it shows how goodness come after passing bad stuffs whoahahahah i sound damn cliche aight.. forget it :p

Monday, September 1, 2008

perverts are off during ramadhan

hahhahha today as i walked home from my workplace...calmly and peacefully... it was a rare thing since usually streets perverts do the psst pssst psst just like they play a record of it.. hhahahha screw them.. maybe they're fasting too.. i like this circumstance.. well it shows that they actually realized what they do was no good to others and very much reflected their lust so they have to resist it during ramadhan hhaahhaha......alhamdulillah....