launch!!!!!!

day fourth of the week but it feels like just yesterday was monday!!! been busy with tons of homeworks and parttime works!!!!!i'm 20 years old , people said it's a productive age. well i regard so.. at first i was afraid of leaving my teen age, teens was hell lot of FUN !!!!!!! until one day of the upcoming days to my 20 i had this contemplation bout my self in the past and future. i was reminded of bad things ive done. felt silly afterwards and laughing at my self. i got realised that it's a step to make a change, go forward, and just grow up. according to a westerner friend, people there are considered mature on the age of 21. someone has to get outta their parents' house and find their own living place. he/she then is to be fully responsible to him/herself. on the article i read in a woman mag, it said that 20 is a proper age to start saving money for the future investment in order to maintain our treasury. i started to work as a temps(parttimer) in my 20 but i used to spend the salary right away after i got it. Childish way!!! i was meant to please my self. was so lavish hehehehehe i feel sory for myself neways.
ya i know it's a productive age but it also a moment for us to choose what's right. like wat to be and to do in future, i believe everything which are good organized are worth much. it means good planning. but the most important thing is to do the planning. nevertheless it is also the hardest thing hahhahhahaa..... temptations are endless, esp. our moods. i wish we could set moods just like a remote controller hhaahhaha.... just like in a "clicked" movie. i wonder how the military personnel could just stay steady all the time. they'd just do wat has to do without any complaining to the commander. they have a strategic planning and are always ready to execute it anytime. their goal is to winning the war. how could they be so focused in that. dammit man really wonder!!! yea it's just the matter of discipline, they have been indoctrinated by a spirit of corps. to be the best. maybe that's wat the "bad mooders" should do... look back to what our goal was. to see how we could've gone this far. never stop!!!!!!!!