jobless bitch

yeh that's wat ive been calling my self recently with... heheehhee..... aight so last weekend, i went to semarang, my hometown, with initial intention to join recruitment test held by hsbc, as i got there, maaaaaannnnnnnn i was like along with other millions of unemployed people in semarang, sharing oxygen to breath-----nah, actually around 800!!! hehheheh but still!!!!!--------the system was crap, as in "walk in interview" kinda recruitment, we were like 20 animals who would fight to catch one food. long queue,uncertain time of result announcement. as i found out later that there would be a psychology test to select who'd be deserved to get an interview, i was like"gee, not again". to flash back wat happened in one week previously, im having this kinda psychology test phobia. i was too afraid to fail, and i did!!!!! i failed that test. it got me frustrated later on, i was questioning my self wat am i gonna do with no jobs? i feel like a loser...... psycho test sounds like a dead end for me...ever since....
and tomorrow morning is going to be my graduation day. yeh the boring sound ceremony but i forced my self to do it sincerely coz however i gotta appreciate my self for wat ive achieved in 3,5 year at uni. but hey, while the other girls have had reserved some salons to do them make over, i did'nt!!!!! yeh.... i just dont feel like it, and i think it's a waste of money.. i also dont have some tailor do my kebaya, i just bought it in local market hahhahahhah it's damn waaaaaayyyyyy cheaper!!!!!! will only wear it once though.........instead i bought my self some eye shadows and eye liners heehehehe i'll do my self a make up, not a heavy one off course. and for hair do, ive bought a cute piece of hairnet hehhehehe i believe those will do!!!!!!!!!!man,i wish i have a job already by now,, but like all my friends said" move on, ran.... tons of opportunities waiting out there..... hehehe" really look forward to one of em neways

ps; i got my self choked by a chewing gum before swallow it eventually, in the middle of my daydreaming in a bus back to jogja yesterday......wat an idiot

fooled by the weather

just bak from malioboro, got drenched on the way home--not that too drenched anyways-- before i decided to stop by nearest parking lot as the rain seems to get harder! 10 seconds later, after ive got myself covered by raincoat,and ride safely, the rain stops. total dry!! dammit!!

WATCH OUT OF PERVERT!!!!!

one day before i went to jakarta, i hit an internet cafe around my boardhouse. i was too focused with my monitor as i chatted with Xeron until suddenly and unexpectedly a guy popped out in front of my face. dammit i was shocked!! i said,"what the hell are u doing here?" he said, "hey, ive just walking around in front of u but u didnt pay any attention coz u were concentrating on the computer", i said, "so wat" he replied" hey, i like ur hair, it's cute"----ok, i washed my hair that nite before getting online, as a result, it turned curly, my natural hair is curly, real curly---he asked me if it's real, and i said "off course", then he answered"wat's ur name?" aha!!!! it's a motive!!!!! i said" i dont know, secret" and he keeps pushing to tell my name but i keep saying no. then he walked out....but few minutes later, he popped out back and asked me where i live and whether i'd still be there for the next hour, i just keep ignoring him. finally, he made a guess about where i live until he said the right guess!!!!! shit!!!! what the hell did he want? he's a pervert.. well, tacitly, i kept chatting with Xeron, and she asked me to get out and run and suggesting that i should bring a PEPPER SPRAY OR A KNIFE!!!!hhhmmmmm i think i agree with her, but i dont know where to buy pepper spray unless she'd send me that out...so i think a knife would be more affordable for me!!!!!! hehheheh...

blackout

Just got bak from jakarta to do a psychology test for Astra Credit Companies, where I hit my first job application as a fresh graduate, and I failed!!!! Damn..but hey u know wat, if I may choose, I wouldn’t choose to work in Jakarta coz it’s damn dirty and crowded as messy. But come what may, all the big companies are located there…….hhhmm wat’s gone just gone then hehhehhehe…. Feels really good to be back to beloved jogja… so hey it’s been ages since I post this blog last time yeh ehehhehe yea many has happened…..a). it’s been a new year 2008

b)im done with that final paper and got a nice mark( A!! yiiipeee)

c) look forward to a boring graduation ceremony at uni (maannnn I hate ceremonial event!!!!!), im gonna make sure I wont look like a clown—with heavy makeups as the previous graduates did!! Naah, I prefer not using any…..i look good naturally hehhehhee

d) have been doing fun for a month

e) just realized that I gotta make job for living,, time to be independent…..feel sorry for my parents

so the psycho test was sick, or I was.. even the girl sat next to me who has a master degree from England didn’t get it through either…..but one of my uni graduates made it. on the first day I arrived in Jakarta, I took a taxi to get into the company just to know where it is located, as I got there and find wat I seek, i then hired an Ojek( people who offer a ride with their motorbike to earn their living) and try to find some hotel nearby, but I found nothing!!!!!! All I found was some board houses, so I just paid one as for 500 thousand rupiahs a month.. damn…..it’s got hell of mosquitos afterall…….

And I couldn’t even sleep since I got there, while I spent the rest of the day just to stay in my room and try to black out. I did read, making calls, didn’t work all of it!!!!! so I took this sleeping pill called “ Lelap”. That was my first trial taking such pill, still didn’t work…. As time keeps running, I could feel my head dizzy and heavy but not tending to fall off. Later on I decided to take another three pills!!!!!!and few seconds later I felt soooo heavy at the top of my body and fell a sleep eventually……..whoaaaaaa that was an extreme way to get a sleep!!!!! But I promised my self to not doing it again… I think I was lucky to get a nice sleep….. well, I didn’t realize that my action could get me into an overdosed effect and I wouldn’t know wat would be happened to me by that hahhAHHAHAHH screw me!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, back to the psychopath test----hehehehheh :p----- man, I really hate that test, next time I’d have to get into that again, I’d buy a guide book first, and learn it deadly-------the result was announced 2 hours afterwards. as I found my failure, I’ll just walk out of the door gracefully, with my head up hheehheh I didn’t even care about it anyway….i believe there are many more opportunities for me out there and here I am looking for most suitable one :-)

i'm illegal

started in 2004, as i lost my wallet with some cards in it. among those cards including the crucial one, my residential card which stated that i truly am indonesian and live in indonesia. at first i wasnt realize how important that card to me for the next few years, but today as i tried to apply for a new bank account, i was rejected. damn. that's because i dont have a resident card, although ive asked them if i can use my driving licese-- well, that's an id too hehheheh--- but it's not allowed.. whoaaaaaa... ive been looking forward to this , to have a new bank account so i'd be able to save my money in the right place..
god i really hate bureaucracy here,,, to make a renewed id card it'd take complicated ways and not in short time.. first i gotta go back to my home city, and that sux.. coz, i would just deal with guys in charge to sign some form needed as application.. and i'd also deal with some uncertainties if the guys will be there.according to my experience, some government officers are lack of discipline in attendance, sometimes they dont even come to the office,,, in the old days, to get the id proccessing runs quicker than it used to b, people are willing to pay some extra money, yeah some kinda bribery.....i'm not sure if it's still possible these days...i probably will do it if i can hehehehe... dont wanna waste my time anyways

did it..

finally, i get to pass the so called seminar ***siiiiggggghhhhhh*** i think it was sssooo more into a discussion than a seminar... the teachers were late, as usual but i really appreciate their attendance though hehehhehhe.... the senior one was superseded by other teacher who i was quite intended at first hahhahahaa.... coz the senior whom not other than the dean of the faculty is super duper busy yea watever...... in that discussion room i found no tension at all, i was loosen up hehhe.... so far different than wat ive imagined before!!! i did rehearsal again today myself but it turned out that everything's ok!!!!!!!!! i talked frequently hehhehe now i believe that practice makes perfect...... they gave me good opinion and supportive suggestion to write my paper..... now i gotta really focus on it, that paper,,, i betcha make my own due yea.... hhhmmmmmm 2 months seems ok i guess.. whoaaaa run for it babe!!!!!!!!!....... im so tired just now.....need some sleeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppp....ccccccciiaaaaooooo

wat's news?

1. i've got a tv now in my room hehhehe : got it from a graduate friend who's about to go back home soon to other island of the country.he sold it for only 200.000 rupiahs!!!!!! super cheap!!!!! and the tv works well... my room laid on the corner of the row and ive got more ventilation than the previous room----oh ya, the room is kinda new as well which none other than the vacant room nextdoor hehheheh... ----and for that, the antenna receiver could receive the wave from my favorite channels which my board house's or other tvs in other girls' rooms couldnt!!!!! called Metro tv, whoaaa lucky me!!!!!! mine is the only one!!!!so i can see oprah show in it yeaaahh actually my intention was to make noise instead of to fulfill a tv addiction, i rarely watch tv anyways, it's just i need some noise in my room and a bit of entertainment, the audio visual one!!!!!! im getting bored of the laptop and sound system haahhaha... in fact those two were already noisy enough but i'm just craved for moooooooorrrrrreeeeeee whoaa
2. tomorrow is gonnabe the battle day for my intelligence: i will face three tester teachers at a time in order to do presentation about wat i'd write!!!!! and it is a must... couldnt postpone it if i want to get graduated ASAP!!!!!! god, im nervous!! ive done something which i wish could overcome it, today i met my friends and doing rehearsal with them!!!!!!! hahhaah as if they were my teachers! theyve graduated thios month so i expected they would give me some suggestion or just asking question that surely would help!!!!!! i really thank them for that hehehheh 3. i skipped fasting!!!!! been three days hehhehe, not proud for the first, coz i did it deliberately!!!!! but for the rest two, they are accident, u know period!!!!! hahhahhaah.. and it supposed to last for the next 6 days maybeeee hehheh.... but it sucks.. meaning that i have to pay for more after this fasting month's finished whoaaaaa consequence!!!!!!